The Most Beautiful Thing

Chapter 51

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Chapter 51
I'm sorry

"You didn't love me, Ria.." he said. "You only loved me because I was convenient."

I was frozen in my place. Did I hear him correctly? Lahat ng mga nangyari samin noon ay bumalik sakin kaagad after hearing those familiar words.

I suddenly remembered everything.. I remembered the night I told him those words. The night... I lost him. The night I lost everything.

That's the moment I've always regretted in the past. I never looked back on it ever since, and tried removing it from my memories because it still hurts. But hearing him say those words.. parang hinampas sa mukha ko ang lahat ng nangyari.

For a split second, everything came back to me. Naalala ko kung paano ko siya tinalikuran and how I said some things I didn't mean just for him to let me go. The memory of it playing inside my head was still so vivid.

"W-what?" I asked.

Humarap ako sakanya. It was silent dahil tumigil na ang ulan at konting ambon nalang ang natira. He's wet and so was I.

"D-Do you.. remember everything now?" I asked again because he didn't answer.

Pumikit ako ng mariin. Please say yes. Sana naalala mo na ako. Please remember me.

"Yes," he said. It was almost like a whisper but I heard it. "In fact..."

I was about to walk towards him to embrace him and tell him how sorry I was. But the words that came out from him.. shocked me.

"... in fact I have never forgotten."

My eyes dried out and though I wanted to cry-- I couldn't. Tumingin lang ako sakanya, completely shocked and lost for words. What did he say?

"W-what?" I asked again, hoping I heard him wrong. "A-anong sabi mo?"

Huminga siya ng malalim before turning to me. His eyes were dark and sad. It's as if he carried something with him all along.

Hindi siya sumagot. I have never felt so frustrated in my whole life. I wanted answers.. I have a lot of questions inside my mind and I wanted answers right away.

As I stared at him in silence, I finally got the message he was trying to say. And I swear, I have never felt so hurt in my entire life. Akala ko masakit na ang hindi niya pagka-alala saakin. Pero mas masakit pala yung malaman na all this time, niloko lang pala niya ako.

"You lied to me?" I asked, my voice sounded exhausted. "All this time, ginawa mo akong tanga?"

I couldn't even explain what I'm feeling but my knees felt weak and I needed something to hold on. I'm not angry... I'm just hurt.

"5 years, Ria. You left me with nothing, not even a single explanation. I had an amnesia that lasted for about 3 months, in which I forgot about everything. Yes, including you," he said.

Though we're far away from each other, I could still hear him despite the crickets of the night surrounding us. Tahimik ang lugar at wala ring dumadaan na mga sasakyan. Only the streetlamps and the full moon above gave us the light to see each other in the dark, empty road.

"But who am I kidding? You gave me too much to remember that's why I couldn't forget about you."

Hindi ako nakapag-salita because I couldn't process anything. My mind couldn't keep up with what he's saying.