Fading // m.e

twenty one.

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ANALISE’S POV

“Analise! We’re back!” Shawn screamed as the boys ran through the door, making enough commotion to disturb the whole floor.

“Hey guys.” I quietly greeted from the couch as I ended the call with my mom just in time.

“Ana. The whole point of you coming with me was to come to MAGCON. Not laze around on the couch.” Nash explained while jumping on the couch opposite.

“Well, then I guess I shouldn’t of done the groceries and bought all new snacks.” I replied as if it were nothing, while pretending to look busy on my phone.

“GUYPH THEH FOOO!” Hayes and Taylor screamed in unison with bulging mouths full of who knows what.

“So you gonna move over or what?” Cameron asked, just standing at the end of the couch.

“I don’t know, I’m pretty comfortable.” I replied with a smile.

“Well I’m not.” He pouted before bending over slyly and tickling my sides.

“Ah! Ca- Stop!” I squealed-laughed while I did my best to squirm out of his hold.

“So that’s what they get up to when they cuddle?” Aaron stupidly piped up, bringing everyone’s attention over to me.

“Shut up.” I heard Taylor whisper as he elbowed Aaron in the stomach.

“You what?” Nash looked over at the two of us, the look of confusion and shocked plastered all over his face.

“Relax Aaron’s just being an idiot. They just sleep together. ”  Taylor interrupted before Cam or I could come up with a  reasonable response.

As the thought of the possibilities of what Taylor had just said, I looked over to Nash who’se eyebrows were raised.

“Don’t worry Nash. All we do is sleep – AS IN RESTING MY EYE PARTICLES AND SLEEPING!” Cameron shouted as he explained, making the smiles and laughter between everyone grow.

“Alright whatever. Just remember, she’s not available.” Nash warned as he rotated, his index finger held out like he was scolding all the boys - except not all of them were there.

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MATTHEW’S POV

I decided to walk off and abandon myself from the Ana and Cameron show.

I didn’t need to see him tickling her or feeling her ribs or whatever the fuck he was doing; I just wasn’t in the mood. Instead  I walked over to my handcarry, reaching down all the way to the bottom, grasping the fine sheets of paper, careful not to crease them as I pulled it up.

I stared down and examined it. They were now lightly tinted, with few rips along the edges, and more stained drops on the writing filled surface then there needed to be. I flicked through to the very last page, skimming over the words until I finally reached the last half of the page.

Matt. I know you would’ve found this – you were the only one to know where I kept it. But I guess even a loose floorboard isn’t able to keep my secrets forever, right?

I know what you’re thinking – “Why? I thought you were happy? I thought we had everything.”

I know Matt, I thought I could be happy and push it past me. But it’s just too much to handle. My only escape, my only safe haven right now seems as if it’s up there in the sky. Where I can watch over and protect you.

Don’t ever think that you weren’t enough for me; that you were’nt my life. Because you are, and you always will be.You taught me so many things – how to have fun, to have confidence in myself, to live simply so others can simply live, and most of all to love.

This is just something that I have to do, and I’ve never felt so sure about something in my life; other than you. It’s not your fault, I just feel like I need a break. A permanent break from all this.

I’ll always be here, wathing as you skyrocket in fame, and hopefully become an actor like you’ve always wanted to be. I will always admire you for that – you know what you want with your life, and you’ll never let anyone stop you.

So I can assure you my love, this won’t be goodbye. It’s merely a new start for you. A fresh new start in a world wihtout me by your side, but watching from above.

Everything will be okay – I promise. Someday, we’ll be together again because,well life isnt an infinite thing. All things must come to an end. And so have we, for now. But that doesn’t lessen my love for you.

“I want you to remember that I love you more than yesterday, but less than tomorrow. With all my love… Vic.” I read aloud as a slideshow of memories played themselves without my alowance.

“If she truly loved you, she wouldn’t abandon you like this.” A voice dared to pipe up.

Wiping my eyes furiously, scared that it might’ve been Ana, I was relieved and angered at the sight of Carter leaning against the door frame with his hands in his pockets.

“What?” I asked back, trying to push away the fact that my best friend would say something about my one and only love.

“You heard me.” He fired back and just stood there, a smirk planted on his face.

I got up off the bed, stuffing the papers beneath the matress before doing so. I walked over to him, staring him right in the eye.

“Take that back.” I gritted through my teeth, my jaw clecnched tightly.

“Make me.” He said and inched closer until we were inches apart.

“Fine.” was all I said before raising my hand up to his face, but something pulled him back.

“Analise let go of him.” I instructed harshly. I needed to get rid of this anger, and I didn’t need her to be around when I pound Carter for saying that. He knew how I felt; I told him everything – he was supposed to be my best friend.

“Not unless you tell me what’s going on.” She replied, Cameron now assisting her in holding Carter back.

“Whatever.” I scoffed before shoving past Carter, and out of this hell hole.

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