Hey, Mr. Grumpy! [DaraGon/NyongDal]

Special Chapter: Falling Apart

[A/N: Listen to the song on the side.]

Special Chapter: Falling Apart

Nothing’s easy these days for Jiyong. At least, on the friendship department. His own members turned their backs against him, and the same can be said for the 2NE1 members, if not worse. He knew he screwed up. Big time.

He heard the door of their dorm open. He didn’t even bother going out to greet them. Alam niya na galing sa dorm ng 2NE1 ang mga ito. Sa panahon ngayon, Jiyong is just like a piece of dirt on his members’ visions. Not worthy to look at, much more to talk to. Sometimes, he feels that he’s one, too.

Tahimik lang siyang kumakain ng ramyeon nang pumasok si Seungri sa dining room. Nagulat si maknae nang makita niya si Jiyong doon, pero tahimik lang din niyang binuksan ang fridge para kumuha ng pagkain. Nagsimulang magluto si Seungri habang nanatili lang na hindi nagsasalita si Jiyong kahit na nagtataka siya. Didn’t they eat there yet? Bakit nagluluto pa ‘tong si Seungri?

 

Patapos na si Jiyong sa pagkain ng ramyeon nang matapos ni Seungri ang niluluto niyang tteokgalbi. It’s his specialty which he learnt from his hometown in Gwangju. To Jiyong’s surprise, inihain ni Seungri sa harap niya ang pagkain. “Don’t live off ramyeon. Kumain ka ng maayos,” sabi nito nang hindi tumitingin kay Jiyong. Matapos noon ay lumabas na ang maknae at naiwan siya na hindi makapagsalita sa pagkabigla.

This is the first time that Seungri talked to him again ever since he handed him the phone that night. Nag-uusap na lamang sila kung kailangan para sa mga pupuntahan nilang music shows o kaya naman ay performances. Iilan lang ang nakakaalam ng totoo na hindi maayos ang relasyon nila ngayon. Si Youngbae na nga lang ang nakikipag-usap sa kanya ng maayos, ngunit maging ang pag-uusap nila ay pabawas na rin ng pabawas dahil palaging nagpupunta sa dorm ng 2NE1 ang apat.

Kinain niya ang tteokgalbi ni Seungri at naghugas ng pinagkainan. Paglabas niya ay sina Youngbae at TOP na lang ang nasa living room, may mga bote ng soju at beer sa harap nila. Tahimik lang sanang dadaan si Jiyong nang tinawag ni TOP ang pangalan niya. “KWON JIYONG!” He yelled, his voice growling.

Napahinto si Jiyong sa paglalakad at nilingon niya si TOP na tumatayo na para salubungin siya. The latter held the former by his collar, to which Youngbae tried to help but his efforts had been in vain because TOP’s intoxication coupled with his anger is not a pretty sight. “Bae-yah,” wika ni TOP.

“Hyung bitiwan mo na si Ji–”

 

“Tell noona I’m sorry, but I just have to do this,” putol ni TOP sa sasabihin ni Youngbae atsaka niya sinapak si Jiyong sa mukha.

Jiyong can’t say that he’s exactly surprised. Matagal na niyang iniisip kung kailan ito gagawin ni TOP. The leader knows of TOP’s feelings about Bom, and he also knows that Bom talks to TOP the most even though most of the time, their conversations come off stupid and crazy. Malakas din ang hula niya na maraming nalalaman si TOP tungkol sa mga paghihirap ni Dara simula nang… umalis siya sa buhay nito.

Ang tanging bagay na nakapagpabigla lang kay Jiyong ay ang mga salita ni TOP. “Tell noona I’m sorry, but I just have to do this,” he said. Pakiramdam ni Jiyong ay naubusan siya ng hangin. Fuck. Can’t you just hate me, Dara?

 

“Ang sama-sama mo, Jiyong.” TOP continued, still holding him by the collar of his shirt. “It’s all your fault! Fuck it, you made her love you. You made her fall hard and fast that she didn’t even know what hit her. Tapos bigla mo siyang bibitiwan?! Are you even a man, huh, Kwon?! She let you in her life and what did you do?! YOU DESTROYED HER! YOU FUCKING WRECKED HER LIFE!”

 

Walang masabi si Jiyong. Alam niya… alam niyang nagkamali siya. But sometimes people get tired. Dara had always been there for her. She never wanted anything from him. She never demanded his time, attention, or love. She was just… there. Whether he called or not, she’s okay. Whenever he sees her, she’ll still come to his arms like nothing happened. Like he didn’t fuck up. Maybe other people see that as a good thing, but one day he got tired. Jiyong is an adventurous person, and he wanted spice on his life. Dara was his constant. Kahit na anong gawin niya, nandoon lang si Dara. And then he came to a point that he didn’t even care anymore. When Youngbae reminds her to at least text Dara, he chooses to fall asleep and let the phone ring for a million times. When Seungri tells him to inform Dara, he just lets it be, knowing that she’ll find out somehow. When Daesung asks him to call Dara so she won’t worry, he leaves his phone on the hotel and goes to a bar.

He is an asshole. He knows that. And he knows he did things the wrong way, and he should have ended things with her before going out with another but… he was too cocky and tells himself that she won’t break up but that fucking phone call came and his mouth was too dry and all he said was “okay” because he knows he deserves it. Because he knows he can’t ask her to stay when he’s too fucked up for his own good. Because he knows he doesn’t deserve for her to stay when he has another woman next to him.

“Okay,” he muttered again, his vision going hazy.

“OKAY?!” TOP shouted incredulously and was about to punch him again when Youngbae stopped him. “Hyung, think of noona. We promised, hyung, we promised,” Youngbae reminded TOP, and that was the only time when the older guy let Jiyong go.

Jiyong walked to his bedroom robotically and shut the door. He lay down on his bed and was about to close his eyes when he spotted a pink post-it note on his side table.

 

사랑해!

- grandma

 

He closed his eyes tightly until it hurt.

I’m sorry.