What We Kept Secret

After 200

"Im sorry." I said sitting in the car on the way back home from the bar
"For what?" Will asked reaching over to hold my hand
"For all the secrets that started happening again." I said finding comfort in his gesture
"Babe its your job. I understand." He said turning into our neighborhood
"But I kept a lot away from you." I said as we drove past houses
"But everything is fine now. Its all over with." He said as he turned into our driveway
"I need to tell you something." I said playing with his hand as it held mine
"Jenn what is it?" He asked noticing my nervousness
"You cant be mad at me please." I said as my eyes filled up with tears
"I can never be mad at you." He said wiping a few that escaped
"I was pregnant." I said looking for a change in his eyes
"When?" He asked quietly
"In Afghanistan." Taking me back to the memory of finding out then losing it right away
"Why didnt you tell me?" He asked sounding a little hurt
"I found out the day I came back for Emily missing and the next week was when our convoy got attacked with the IEDs." I said starting to barely get the words out
"And you didnt care to tell me when you got home?" He asked now sounding upset
"I was going to on Valentines day. It was two weeks after I found out I was then I lost her the next week." I said not able to stop the tears from falling
"I was scared to tell you that I was." I said looking down at our hands as he pulled his away
"Five years to late." He said getting out of the car and leaving me alone 
I walked into the house after calming myself home to see Will sitting at the kitchen bar with a bottle of Jack and a half full glass. I went upstairs to give him some alone time peaking my head into Henrys room seeing him asleep with the baby sitter sitting next to him with a book open.
"Hey. Kate. You can go home." I said whispering to her to wake her up
"He was good. Missed you a lot but was fine." She said smiling as she grabbed her stuff
"Have a safe drive home." I said as I walked her out and she waved goodbye
"Im going to bed." I said leaning on the door frame looking at Will
"Ok. I think I will sleep in the guest room." He said as I nodded and walked away with tears in my eyes
As I brushed my teeth I heard our bedroom door open expecting it to be Will to grab some shorts but was surprised when Henry stood at the bathroom door with red eyes.
"Whats wrong Hen?" I asked getting down to his eye level
"I had a bad dream." He said sniffling
"Alright I guess you can sleep with me." I said turning off the bathroom light and picking him up
"You are getting big little man." I said making him giggle
"Im only five." He said as I laid him down and got next to him
"My big five year old." I said as he cuddle up next to me falling asleep instantly as I played with his hair
"Im so sorry Hen." I said crying as I held him close
"I failed as a mother. I know you wanted a sibling but I couldnt protect her and now its harder for me to carry to full term." I said crying now talking more to myself
"JJ." Will said walking into the room now after I guess of listening outside the door
"Im fine." I said holding Henry closer as he sat down on the side of the bed
"Im sorry for how I acted." He said wiping his own tears away
"You didnt do anything. I should have told you I was and then lost her." I said moving Henry and sitting up
"Lets go downstairs." Will said standing up and reaching for my hand to hold and follow after him
"Why her?" He asked as we sat on the couch and wrapped us in a blanket
"Because I felt like we would have had a girl." I sniffled and laid my head on his shoulder
"What do you mean it will be harder to carry to full term?" He asked making my heart sink
"When the convoy got attacked the um stress I went through from almost being blown up and getting in a fire fight was to much and..." I said with my voice shaking as I shook at the memories
"And what babe?" He said holding my hands to calm me down
"It ruined a part of me and my body wont react to the same way it should when carrying a baby." I finally said before taking a deep breath
"We can always still try." He said picking my chin up as I saw his eyes blood shot from crying
"But...." I started to say
"No buts. For better or worse remember." He said picking up my left hand and kissing my ring
"I love when you wear your real ring." He said making me smile a little bit
"You dont like the bands I wear to work?" I asked knowing he would rather me show off the ring he got me when we got married
"Darlin I love what ever you wear. But right now I dont like what you are wearing." He said smoothly looking me up and down
"So you dont like when I wear your shirt and short shorts?" I questioned still wiping tears away
"No. Its too much clothing." He said before kissing me passionately before gently laying me down on the couch
"Are you sure?" I asked looking at his lust filled eyes
"There is nothing I want more then to make love with to my wife." He said before standing and picking me up to go to our room
"Wait Henry is in there." I said before he opened the door
"Fine the guest room it is." He said turning around and walking into it and closing the door with his foot

I woke up back in our bed with still a sleeping Henry.
I kissed his forehead and left the room wincing at the pain from last nights activities
"Goodmorning." I said walking into the kitchen seeing Will shirtless and making breakfast
"Well goodmorning." He said pulling me close and giving my a deep kiss
"No more secrets." I whispered after we pulled away
"No more." He said before kissing my forehead and going back to the pancakes
"You are going to have a happy son." I laughed as I poured myself coffee and added my cream and sugar
"I was thinking of going to the zoo today." Will said hearing the sound of Henrys feet shuffle down the stairs
"I wanna go to the zoo!" He yelled running over to get picked up
"Well I guess that is what we will do little man." Will smiled kissing his temple and putting him down
"No more secrets." I said smiling at their interaction
"No more love." He said kissing my forehead again before finishing up breakfast.

I decided to just write what people wanted as one shots. Any suggestions you want let me know 😊