Walk on the Beach - R5 Fanfic

Chapter 50

Somehow I drove home and dragged myself up the steps to my room.  I fell down on my bed and just started sobbing again.  

"Blair?"  My mom came rushing in.  "Honey what's wrong?"

"I miss him."  Was what I got out.

"Oh honey he will come see you soon-"  

"We broke up."

"Oh honey,"  she sat down on my bed and started running her hand on my arm, trying to make me feel better.  "I'm sorry.  Why did he break up with you?"

"Well we didn't break up he said we should just take a break.  Because he doesn't want to hurt me if he can't be there for me."

"Aw, at least he still cares about you.  It's for the best."

"I know."  I sobbed out.

She sat with me for a while, telling me all about her boyfriends.  I didn't listen though because I didn't really care.  She eventually just left me alone, giving me time to call Jenna to come over.  About 20 minutes later.

"I brought tissues and your favorite ice cream."  Is what she said when she came through my door.  She knew what I needed.  "So what happened?"  She said a bit to eagerly.  "Sorry, you don't have to tell me.. I mean if you don't want to."  She handed me the tissues and the ice cream.  Nice job on tissues, they were the ones with aloe in them so my nose wouldn't be all red.  It took me a while to tell her exactly what happened.  I wanted to get in all the details, with my sobs going off in between.

"Blair, he still like you.  He doesn't want to hurt you."

"I know."  I said.

"If I had a guy like that, there aren't many like that."  She laughed a little.  "Blair he really does love you."

"I know.  But if he loves me why did he just dump me?"  I sobbed out.

"Have you never even herd that dumb 'if you love her let her go' thing?!  Blair if he would have stayed with you and he left again you would be miserable again.  He wanted you to be happy."

"I guess so."

"Yeah, that is exactly what he wanted for you."  Then I remembered something specific, that i needed to yell at her for.

"Wait, Jenna maybe if you wouldn't have told him about Josh!"  I yelled at her.  

"Okay first of all, I'm taking you yelling is you emotional break down right now.  And yes, I told him."

"Why?  See what happened!"

"Blair he would have done it anyways."

"How do you know?!"

"Because you kissed Josh because you were miserable!  You missed Ross and you needed someone to make out with in your time of depression.  Josh was there, Ross wasn't.  Ross realized he couldn't be there for you.  He wants tobe, but somethings can't happen. Do you get me yet?"  She yelled back at me.  "He doesn't want you to be miserable again."  She calmed down her voice.

"Yes."  I fiinally understood her.  "I guess he did really love me.  But this just sucks."

"Maybe, and don't get mad when I say this." 

"What?"  I asked her.

"Maybe you should go talk to Josh.  You're not with Ross anymore.  Go see what happens."

"You're saying I should go get with him right after this?!"

"No, just talk to him.  You have been kind of mean to him, when all he was trying to do was help you."

"Fine, I guess you're right.  I could just talk to him."

"It might make you feel better."  

"Fine, I will talk to him tomorrow at lunch."

"Good.  Now finish your ice cream."  She said, finally making me laugh.

"Should I talk to Ross?"  I asked her, desperately wanting her advice.  

"I think you both need some air.  Text him when you're ready."

"Alright."

"Why don't we try to cheer you up, I don't like looking at you like this."  She laughed.

"So what do you wanna do?"  I asked sniffling.

"Let's do something."  She said and I gave he a sarcastic look.

"Let's not do anything.  I look like this, I am not going into public."

"Ok fine, watch a movie?"  

"Sure."  I agreed.  "What movie?"

"No chick flicks."  She said, and I nodded.  "How bout a kid's movie, no relationships in those."

"Anthing rated G is fine with me."

"Ok...Finding Nemo."  She said and we both laughed.

"Sure.  That's fine."  I said.

"Okay, good.  I wasn't actually going to list any more."

So we watched Finding Nemo.  I cheered up a bit.  Jenna left later.  And I cried again.  I just went to bed early, I had an unwanted duty to go to school tomorrow.  I also had a duty to talk to Josh.  But I did have to deal with knowing Ross and I are over, at least for now.