I laid down on my bed, thinking about today. I met 4 guys who were incredibly kind to me, and also all extremely attractive. I never thought something like this could happen to me. Still though, I couldn't feel happy. I thought about the curly haired Jack, and wondered what I did that caused him to dislike me. Normally I'm not the type of girl to have crushes, but I knew I liked Jack. He was a smaller build than the rest of the boys, and quite a bit shorter, yet somehow way more mysterious. Something about him pulled me in. Before I knew it, I had tears in my eyes. He's probably used to all the prettiest girls falling all over him, and just doesn't care for me. I should have known. Nobody I like ever likes me back. That's why I thought I had given up on having crushes. I wiped away the tear that had slipped down my cheek, and pulled my covers over me; hoping I would soon fall asleep. Even though I hoped to fall asleep, I knew sleep wouldn't come. My mind was still racing. I knew nothing a about this boy but I liked him so much that it hurt.
~~Jack's POV~~
I slowly took off my hoodie and my shirt, leaving myself in just a pair of loose fitting khaki pants. I looked at myself in the mirror. Instantly, I feel small and worthless. I run a hand through my hair, and put on a tough face, still staring at my reflection. I stare at each and every rib, clearly visible from under my skin; running my fingers over each one. I look away from the mirror, and change into a pair of pyjama shorts, before getting into bed. I shut off the light on my bedside table, my phones screen being the only light in the room. Somebody was knocking on my door. "What's up?" I called, not wanting to get out of bed.
"Can I come in for a second?" Asked Jonah, still on the other side of the door. "Uh, yeah sure. Why not." Jonah slowly opened the door, and shut it behind himself. Leaning on the now closed door. My room was so dark, I could barely see his face. "I just wanted to know if you were feeling okay" Jonah said. I could tell he was looking at me, even though I couldn't see his face. I, on the other hand was staring at the ceiling.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry about it." I said quietly. "I kind of have to worry about it, because there was someone really nice in our house tonight. That girl Emily. She honestly seems like a great person, and you weren't exactly being the nicest to her. I know you didn't say anything bad, but I just hope you will try to get along with her." Jonah said, in a calm voice. "Yeah. Uh.. Sorry. I didn't really realize what I was doing." I said, even though Jonah and I both knew this was a lie. "Alright, well, I'm gonna sleep. Goodnight man." Jonah said, leaving my room, and closing the door behind him. "Night." I said quietly. The truth was that I was afraid. The second I saw Emily, I could tell she was different. She was beautiful, in the most real way. Her features weren't perfect, but somehow, they made the perfect face. I loved the little blush on her cheeks, I loved her shyness, I loved her kind, positive attitude. Everything about her seemed so genuine. This perfectness is why I have to push her away. I'm so emotional. Every girl I've ever liked has ended up liking one of the other guys instead. I constantly feel like the least attractive. I feel like nothing. At least if I can keep myself from falling for Emily, I'll keep myself from getting hurt. I can already tell that she wouldn't like me anyway. I mean, why would she when 4 other guys who are 10 times more attractive than me, half a foot taller than me and way more fit than me are throwing themselves all over her. I feel myself becoming slightly choked. Tears start to well in my eyes. I'm so sick of being the nobody in my group. I cover my face with my pillow, and try to sleep; knowing full well that I won't get any. Her blue eyes, and long brown hair haunt my thoughts. I like Emily.
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Why Don't We? // Jack Avery fanfiction
FanfictionShe thought being different was bad. He thought being different was beautiful. Little did Emily know, this one boy could change her entire life forever.