Kanan and Ezra One Shots

Crash Landing pt. 1

Kanan's pov

I wince as I feel another shot of pain come from my right hip. Even though Hera gave me painkillers not too long ago, it still feels like my hip is burning.

A few days ago, we had a rescue mission, assigned by Commander Sato and before we were able to make our escape, a storm trooper was about to shoot Sabine with his blaster on kill. It would've hit her in the head, killing her instantly, but I shoved Sabine away, sending the blaster shot to my hip.

I knew I could've done something else to save her, but that was the only idea that came up at the time.

Zeb and Ezra saw everything and helped me to the med bay. Sabine made sure I got help right away by sending a medical team to me. That moment was hard to process, with the shock from the wound and pain that came with it. I was only able to say a few words that day. That was probably the only thing I could remember, due to the amount of blood I lost.

Before I knew it, the next day my whole side was bandaged. The crew came in the med bay often to check up on me, Hera mostly. Even though the look of relief on Hera's face and gratefulness that I would survive this made me feel better, I was still facing extreme pain.

The nurses suggested I go on medication. They would've gave me prescription painkillers. I had no objection, but Hera thought it would be best to take Motrin every few hours instead. I couldn't go against Hera, so I agreed.

I was having a hard time sleeping because the pain would keep me up all night. My wound was deep, I had to change my bandages everyday. It felt like someone dropped me in a volcano.

My only solution.........alcohol.

I promised everyone I wouldn't drink again. But it's my only option. The painkillers aren't doing much, so alcohol is just another painkiller to me. Hera would get furious about this. Everyone else would be disappointed, especially Ezra. I swore to him after that one day I got drunk and yelled at him for no reason, I wouldn't even taste alcohol again. But now I'm breaking the promise.

When everyone went into their rooms, I would sneak into the kitchen and take out my hidden vodka. I made Zeb buy me some at the market. He wasn't comfortable with it at first, but decided to help me out.

No one else knows about this. It's not like I will become an alcoholic. This is only for a month, until my wound completely heals. Only a month of lying.

Right now I am in the kitchen, waiting impatiently for Zeb to return with more vodka. I already finished the three bottles. Even though I already feel drunk as it is, my hip is still bothering me, encouraging me to drink more. It is the only way I could get my mind to focus on something other than the pain. It's five in the morning and everyone else should be asleep, so I'm good for the time being.

Suddenly, the door opens. I thought it was Zeb, but Sabine walks in.

"Hey Kanan." She greets me.

"Hey....." I try to make my voice sound like I wasn't drinking. "What are you doing up so early?"

"Just needed water." She says while pouring some water in her cup. "I could say the same about you."

"I couldn't sleep." I say.

She nods and sits next to me. "You know, I never said thanks for saving me."

I see the look in her eyes telling me how thankful she really was.

"Don't mention it, I would give up my life for all of you at any costs." I say while smiling.

"It's just.....I feel bad that you are going through so much pain." Sabine says.