conversations // prinxiety ✔

♥ 33 - i'm sorry ♥

(a/n: song is called six feet under by billie eilish. pls pls pls listen to it if you haven't already. also this chapter is kinda... oof sorry)

Before I could go over to take a good look at what the piece of paper was, I heard a frantic knock on my door.

Opening it up, I saw Virgil with smudged makeup and teary eyes.

I wanted to stay mad at him, but I just couldn't. So I didn't say anything.

"Hey..." he said. "Roman, we really need to talk."

I nodded.

"I... I don't think this relationship is good for either of us. We don't understand each other that well, a-and we're always fighting and I'm a horrible boyfriend and this could turn into something toxic super quickly. I-I don't want to see you in pain, s-so I wanted to say this now..."

Oh. Oh Lord. I was sure I knew what was coming.

"Roman... I love you, you know? You've done so much for me and I'm forever grateful... I love y-you so fucking m-m-much and I don't want to do this, but we have to... break up. O-Or at least take a short break. You expect so much from me that I can't give you and I guess... I need some time alone. Just for a little while?"

I looked down at the floor and kept silent.

"Y-You... A-Are you going to say something?"

I wanted to talk, but words couldn't come out of my mouth.

"O-Okay... I'm sorry..." He flung the door open and bolted out, sobbing.

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*virgil's pov*

I cried into Patton's shoulder.

"H-He didn't e-even c-c-care!" I sobbed. "He didn't s-say anythi- anything!"

"Virgil... I'm sure he cared. Maybe it was just a lot for him to process."

"He just s-stood there! A-And it's like he n-never even loved me to b-begin with!"

"If he never loved you, he's not worth your tears. You were unhappy and you want to take a break from your relationship with him and that's okay! If he doesn't understand that you need your alone time, he doesn't love you and there are more fish in the sea!"

"B-But the p-prettiest fish's name is Roman..." I struggled to even say his name.

"I'm sure there are other pretty fish..."

He held me close for a while.

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*roman's pov*

I stood there, stunned.

I wanted to run out of my room, kiss him, and tell him I was sorry and tell him how important he is.

But I didn't.

I couldn't.

He would never forgive me after everything I did to him. He forgave me so many times before when I didn't deserve to be forgiven and he needs someone better.

So I didn't go after him.

I went to the paper laying on my bed. I noticed it had a large sticky note on it.

Roman,

I know you want to know everything that's hurting me. I know you want to help me. Hopefully, this will make up for everything. You see, Deceit did some pretty awful things to all of us. I got rid of those memories for everybody but me.