conversations // prinxiety ✔

♥ 2019 a/n (please read) ♥

oh jeez it's weird updating this one.

but i just wanted to talk about this story as of 2019.

im so, so proud of it still and im really happy other people read it and like it but i just have some things to say?

ever since i started writing fanfiction, ive been learning from my mistakes and improving. for example, my old unpublished joshler fanfic from 2016 had their relationship start by tyler cheating on jenna and if i still wrote joshler, i would know that that is completely wrong and i won't do it again.

so i didn't carry that into my sanders sides fanfics because i know it's wrong to be spreading the idea that cheating is okay.

you don't know how old i am, but i would say im pretty young, and in 2016 i was a little bitch. the things i was saying i would absoluTELY not condone today.

what does this have to do with conversations?

well, despite the plot planning issues (which im getting better at i think! im currently writing all the world's a stage and im so proud of it!), there's another problem.

and it's the way roman and virgil's relationship begins.

it's roman being terrible to virgil, not doing much to apologize, driving virgil to nearly kill himself, and then stopping patton from being with virgil out of jealousy even though he never did anything to deserve virgil other than the fact that i love prinxiety.

the way they started off was not okay.

im fine with enemies to friends to lovers, but this is something else.

and when i wrote it i knew it was fucked up but that was the point. i wanted this to be angsty and fucked up.

but i didn't realize JUST how terrible this was until i reached the middle of the story where i made their relationship extremely dysfunctional on purpose, having them break up and fight several times, so that it would show the true consequences of starting a romantic relationship that way.

and then they would find their way out of things together and finally figure out a balance, leading to a happy relationship.

i can't speak for you guys, so i don't know how you interpreted both roman and virgil's actions, and i hope everything ive learned and changed in every post-conversations fanfic ive written will make up for this.

i know the point is that they started off really badly, and you might not think i needed to write this a/n.

but i know that there are younger readers who read my shit and im not trying to sound condescending because "younger" readers aren't that many years younger than me.

i don't want to be spreading the message that you should go back to someone who you know hurt you.

if there's anything you could learn from from this story, virgil finally grew a spine throughout it and learned that he deserves better and he doesn't need someone to save him when he finally figures out how to speak up for himself. (even though he does get back together with roman later.)

if i rewrote this, i would have a time gap or a second book set a few years later and then let the romance finally work out.

that's all i wanted to say. im so grateful for all the support ive gotten, but i don't want to be unintentionally spreading a bad message, and im sorry if you were upset at anything that i didn't mean to happen.

love you guys. 💛

- nicky