Dysfunctional (Sequel to Soft Whispers)

Avoidance

Please, talk to me. 

Jacob. 

It's been two days and I'm really sorry for whatever I did. 

The fact that you don't even know angers me more. 

How could you not know?

I'm sorry. 

You've literally been hanging around him! How could you not know?

You're falling for the person who I hate the most.

Well what do you want me to do? 

I don't know, Bria.

You're mad at me, but when I ask you what you want me to do, you say you don't know?

Do you know how confusing that is for me?

I want you to forgive me, but you're not telling me how, Jacob. 

It's not like anything I tell you will matter, Bria.

Why not?

You know why.

I'm not there when you two are talking in the library. 

I'm not there when you two smile at one another. 

I'm not there anymore and dammit Bria, I never will be.

So go ahead and go out with him, I don't care.

Jacob, please, I know you don't mean that. 

It's not the same. 

I'm dead. 

You're depressed and I can't do anything about it like I truly want to.

There's really no point in me even being here.

What are you saying?

That maybe I shouldn't talk to you as much. 

I don't want people treating you like how they treated me. You don't deserve any of that.

I'm not going away for good, but I'm not going to be around as much. 

You need to get better, and me constantly reminding you that I'm not there physically is just making your depression worst.

So you think leaving is going to magically fix it all?

You think talking to me less is going to cure my depression? 

That's stupid, Jacob! 

That is absolutely stupid!

I can't even believe you just told me all that. 

You leaving is just going to make me even sadder. Don't you know that?

I blinked back my tears as I awaited his answer, and after ten minutes had passed. I finally came to terms that he wasn't going to answer me. There was no point in trying to talk to him because I wouldn't get an answer, no matter how much I truly wanted one. 

Why do you have to be so damn stubborn?

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I don't know if it's just because I'm in a mood right now, it probably is, but I don't like this story. I feel as if I could do better, but I have like... Twenty-something chapters already done and written, and I don't feel like re-writing all of them. Anyway, sorry for the suckish update, and also for any mistakes.

Love,

Me.