Saudade [COMPLETED]

Chapter 3

"Dad, you were personally informed by Lucky about the supply he'll be getting on HZM Inc. right?" I went to my dad's office after work.

"Yes. What about it Hailey?" He looked at me scrutinisingly.

"He asked me to take care of it instead of the other engineers and architects because according to him I'm the suited person to do so." I answered confidently.

"Why is that? Because you're my daughter? That's stupid. If i were him I wouldn't trust this to you. You're still incapable of this task." One blow. I know there's more.

"No dad that's not it. I was the one who lead the team and design the project so I know everything about it." Kahit nagigiba na ako sa loob I cannot let my father see that.

"Oh so you feel mighty and proud of your little accomplishment now?" Mejo tumaas na ang boses ng daddy and all of his attention is with me.

"No dad, I'm sorry. I was just saying that he gave me this task but if you think I'm not capable then I'd look for someone who's capable." Bigla niyang hinampas ang lamesa.

"Puñeta! You always know how to disappoint me!" He shouted.

"Daddy I'm sorry." I was about to hold him ngunit tinabig niya ang kamay ko.

"Get out!" My heart is really breaking but I followed his order.

I went directly inside my car and cry my heart out. He has always been like this e, kaya dapat sanay na ako pero hindi. Still hurts me every time.

I typed an email for Lucky.

[ You have probably knew that this would happen. That dad doesn't want me to handle this negotiation between you and him. You told me I played well but no, you played better." ]

I sobbed furiously until my phone ring.

Lucky Blue Saleco Calling...

"What did your dad told you?" He sounded concerned pero magaling umarte ang lalaking ito.

"You wanna know so you can laugh more about it!? Well, I will tell you para naman Sagaran na iyang Kasiyahan mo! He told me that I'm incapable! Not because I'm his daughter ay kaya ko! He told me that because of my little accomplishment I feel mighty and proud! And lastly I always find things to disappoint him! Now you know!? Are you happy!? Are you fucking happy!?" I didn't let him answer and turn off the phone immediately.

I wish sometimes that I was born in a different family but I know never in this lifetime that will happen.

I drive my way back to my condo. It's Sunday tomorrow so I can go out tonight but I decided against it, cause I cannot party, all I can do is throw my self my own party. Pity party.

DZ was online on Skype but I bet he's busy so I just typed a message for him. I was watching how I met your mother when a message popped up on my laptop.

[Call you later love, I'm in a conference.xoxo] DZFranks.

I'm not expecting any message but Skype notified me again for a new message.

[ I know you're mad, my intentions isn't what you're thinking but I'm sorry. I'll fix this for you. Sleep tight baby.] LuckyBlueS

I typed my reply for him.

["This will only be fixed once you decided to just stop manipulating my life and let me go. I am so tired of this Blue. I am so tired of harbouring ill feelings for you."]

I log out from Skype and shut down my laptop.

I hit the hay and got my old diary. I found this diary when I was moving my stuff from home to my unit.