Saudade [COMPLETED]

Chapter 33

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I'm on my way to my last class before meeting Blue. It's been a week since I last saw him. I did everything for the past days to avoid him and not let our paths cross. Every hurtful words he told is still vivid in my head.

But I figured out na kung iiwasan ko siya ay hindi namin maaayos ang problema. The problem should be address because it's making the both of us suffer. If I'm assuming right.

Nakauwi na rin si Ria at Cross from Madrid, sa bigat ng problema nilang dalawa ay hindi ko na sinabi ang problema namin ni Blue. Telling it to Ria will only worsen her situation.

Nang makapasok sa classroom ay naupo ako sa tabi niya. She smiled at me but I can see right through her that it was a force smile. She's sad and lonely and I know it cause I'm her best friend since time immemorial.

"Everything will be alright Ria." I told her at saka ipinatanong ang ulo ko sa balikat niya.

"I really hope so." She said exhaustedly.

Dumating na ang professor namin at na occupy na ng lesson ang utak namin.

One thing I wouldn't take for granted is my studies, boys, problems and other stuff will pass and leave you but learnings won't.

Cross was waiting outside our classroom for Ria kaya nag paalam na din ako sakanila dahil may pupuntahan din ako.

Blue texted me to meet him in the parking lot kaya mabilis na doon na ako nag tungo.

The sound of my heels is echoing in the parking lot kaya alam kong alam ni Blue na palapit na ako.

After all it's just the two of us here.

Sinubukan niya akong yakapin but I dodge it. I want us to talk and that's just seriously and strictly talk. I don't want to cloud my mind with how much I missed him and everything.

Pinagbuksan niya ako ng pinto ng kotse and I clambered after.

He started driving to I don't know where. I didn't ask where we're heading dahil kahit naman na we're not in good terms I am still safe with him.

After almost an hour of driving ay inihinto niya ang sasakyan niya sa Pasta house na pinuntahan namin noon malapit sa Saleco Building.

An usherette guide us to the reserved seat at agad din kaming inabutan ng menu.

I ordered meat ball pasta and ice tea.

"That's it baby?" Blue asked.

I just nodded in response at sinabi niya na ang order niya.

"Baby..." he called reaching for my hand.

I looked at him stoically.

"I'm so sorry. I'm really sorry. Everything I have told I didn't really mean it. I was just too caught off guard with my feelings. I was mad and you know Taus isn't my most favourite person living. I hope you'll forgive me baby... I'm sorry. I miss you so bad baby. I love you." His eyes was teary and his voice was laced with sincerity and it's seriously making my heart melt.

"Everything you have told me shattered my heart Blue. I know you didn't ask me to love you all these years but I did and I still do and for you to doubt me is beyond me. It has been you all along. I hurt my self and other people in the process of loving you yet you've doubted me. It h-hurts." My voice broke on the last part but I felt my heart breaking again.