Saudade [COMPLETED]

Chapter 39

Chapter 39

Bago pa man ako makaalis sa kusina ay nag salita siya.

"Do you always wear clothes like that here?" Sabi niya na parang hirap na hirap.

I turned to face him and his ardent green eyes bore in to me.

"Yes. Dito lang naman sa loob ng bahay and I'm alone." I said nonchalantly.

Nakita ko ang marahas na pag singhap niya na animo ay may malaking problema.

"Why? Is there something wrong about my clothes?" I raised my right brow as ask him that question.

"No." He said na kahit iba sa expression niya ang gustong isagot.

"Oh okayyy." I said as I turn my back at him and muster a triumphant smile.

Ang kagustuhan ko na umalis siya ay naglaho. I just didn't care anymore kung malaman pa iyon ni daddy dahil ang importante ay makasama ko si Kegann.

I will win him and this time I am sure! Wala na akong pakialam sa sasabihin ng ibang tao. They don't know what I've been through and they don't know my struggles.

I only care for my happiness now after putting other people's happiness before mine. I will only chase for the people and the things that will make me feel happy and alive.

I want to live again. This time a free soul and without people manipulating me.

He called me shortly for dinner and pulled a chair for me.

Kahit na nag luto ay hindi amoy pasta. His perfume is too expensive and manly that the other smell is being ashamed to mix with it. Napailing nalang ako sa naisip.

Nilagyan niya ako ng carbonara sa plato ko bago ang sakanya.

Pagkalasa ko noon ay bigla akong nahiya sa mga niluto ko! Damn this Carbonara can beat the carbonara being served at my favourite 5 star Italian restaurant!

"You didn't like it?" Tanong niya ng mapansin na tumigil ako sa pagkain.

"No... I like it very much. This is the best carbonara I ever had." His eyes sparkle a bit and his lips curve for a smile.

"Thank you." He said at kumain na.

I ate a lot that night that's why I decided to go for a walk para bumaba ang pagkain bago matulog. The carbs and calories I take for the past weeks is a lot and I'm in doubt if my jogging every morning is helping.

Kinuha ko ang cardigan ko sa kwarto at lumabas na.

Kegann is in the living room watching basketball on BTV. Marahil ay tapos na sa paghuhugas. I tried helping him earlier but he said he can do it.

"I'll just go in for a walk, I ate a lot." Paalam ko sakanya.

Mabilis niyang pinatay ang Tv at sumunod saakin.

Nagtaka ako ngunit ng sabihin na sasama siya saakin ay tumahimik nalang.

The moon was in full bloom. Blasting its light all over the place. It was magnificent only to be more magical that I'm walking with the man that I love.

"Haiz..." he called. Napatigil at humarap ako sakanya.

"Aren't you going home yet? It's been a month since you left home." He said. I pr seed my lips together.

Humarap akong muli sa buwan at nag salita.

"I don't wanna go back. It's not my home anymore. This is my home. I'm happy here." Pumatak ang ilang luha sa aking mukha.

Sure, I feel sorry for talking back to my parents before I left and I miss them, but I love where I'm in now. I found family in the people whose not even blood related.

Naramdaman ko ang pagpulupot ng kamay niya sa katawan ko.

"Okay, we'll not go back not unless you're ready." Dinampian niya ng halik ang buhok ko.

"But you can't do that. You have a business to take care and a girlfriend waiting for you." Halos ibulong ko ang huling pangungusap dahil sa pait na nararamdaman.

"I don't have a girlfriend." Mas lalong himigpit ang yakap niya. My heart leap at that.

"Who was the girl you're with at the art gallery then?" Tanong ko.

"Garrett Sullivan nililigawan ni Taus. She was looking for a gift for Tita Giselle's birthday." Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya.

"Ah! She was the girl Taus has been telling me about! I remembered when he asked me to draw a portrait of her noon sa America! I told him that I don't draw portraits but he said he knows I do dahil niregaluhan kita noon. Nag away pa kami noon dahil ang kulit niya!" Natawa ako ng maalala iyon.

"So your first portrait drawing was me?" There was amusement on his voice. Tumango ako bilang sagot.

"My forte has always been painting, nagawa ko lang ang drawing na iyon noon because I was inspired." Hindi siya sumagot at nanatili lang na nakayakap saakin.

Lumipas ang ilang minuto bago ulit ako nag salita. Humarap ako sakanya at hinawakan siya sa kamay.

"I'm sorry Kegann... I know it's long overdue but I am sorry for what I did 6 years ago. Hindi ko alam kung paniniwalaan mo ako but I never used you or manipulated you. Hindi ako nakasagot noon sa tanong mo dahil ayaw ko na mag kamali sa desisyon ko. I was too messed and I'm still am and dragging you deeper will hurt me more." Hindi siya sumagot pagkasabi ko noon.

I just found myself following him going back to the house.

I guess winning him back will be hard as rock.