Saudade [COMPLETED]

Chapter 20

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Chapter 20

My mind is haywired as we eat. Ang daming kong tanong.

Why Kegann is here? Why does he' with Taus? Did he saw the kiss? What does he feel? Nasasaktan ba siya? Ano ba ang nasa isip niya?

Sobrang dami and worst I cannot just shove it off!

"The meat is already dead but the way you slice it parang pinapatay mo ulit." A smirked form from Vrytonn's lips.

I frowned.

"Eh what's the problem?" Muling tanong niya.

"Nothing." I replied at isinubo ang isang piraso na hiniwa ko sa steak.

"Sabagay, it's really should be nothing because of course... you got Blue." Isang kindat at malutong na tawa ang pinakawalan niya.

I just rolled my eyes. He's one of the few people who knew how I dreamed about Blue. He even witnessed my confession back then.

"Stop teasing her Vrytonn." Blue commanded at saka naupo sa tabi ko.

Itinaas naman ni Vrytonn ang kamay niya na animo sumusuko. He gave me a final wink saka nilapitan si Sade at inakbayan.

"Let's have this day trying all the water activities baby girl." Masuyong sabi ni Blue bago niya ako hinalikan muli sa labi. It was a 30 seconds peck. It felt natural.

I nodded and smiled at him.

Napag desisyunan ng lahat na mag island hopping at saka gagawin doon ang ibat-ibang water sports.

Me and Ria knew that we're the least excited about this because again we aren't sporty, but Sade seems to be very sporty and athletic.

Nag lalakad ako papunta sa pampang matapos mapagod sa pag jet ski. The boys and Sade went water skiing while Ria still enjoys jet skiing habang nanonood sakanila.

May eyes wanders to the surfers. Girls were cheering so loud at kilig na kilig pa habang nakatingin sa lalaking magaling na naglalaro sa alon.

I saw how the guy swiftly manoeuvre his self with his surfboard sa magagandang alon.

I slowly walk my way going near the crowd.

Habang papalapit ako ay nakikilala ko ang lalaking nag lalaro sa alon.

"Kegann's really good kid. I bet you're changing your mind choosing that Saleco?" Ang mapang asar na mukha ni Taus ang humarap saakin bago pa man ako tuluyang makalapit.

"What's the problem with you?" Naiirita kong tanong.

He matched my irritated face with his irritated face. Wow! Really?

"You're Sh*ting on my best friend and that's my problem." My eyes were popping in shock on what he said.

"Sh*ting on your best friend!? Excuse your malicious allegations! I don't sh*t on people! I'm not like you!" Halos magbuga ako ng apoy sa pag kasabi ko noon.

He gave me a smug look.

"Really? So what are you doing with Kegann then? Hindi mo ginagago pero ginagawa mong aso?" I closed my fist in anger.

As much as I wanted to hit him I wasn't raise like that. Violence is for savages and I'm not a savage.

I know my eyes are probably red and bloodshot by now but I won't give him the satisfaction of seeing me cry in front of him. Never! Never in his asshole lifetime!

"You are one full blown asshole and I hate you so much." I said in gritted teeth.

He smirked at me.
Lalo lang akong nanggigil.

"Kegann has bad taste in choosing friends because he chose you." Nandidiri kong sabi.

I should have leave and never have exchange words with him, because a guy like Taus is the kind of guy you don't wanna associate yourself with.

But then the stupid and stubborn part of me just won't back down.

He again gave me another smirk that triggers me to claw his face with my long nails.

"You're right, Kegann definitely has a very bad choice. You know why? Because he chose to want you."

I was about to push Taus when someone punch him in the face that made him fell on the ground.

"You don't tell that to Hailey Taus!" Sigaw ni Kegann habang hawak ang kamay ko.

Taus was able to stand up and gaze back to the angry Kegann while he wipe the blood on his lips.

Taus doesn't look like that he'll fight back but Kegann is so angry that's why I hold on to him tightly, not letting him go.

"What happened to Bros before hoes?" Taus said that made Kegann angrier.

Kegann was up for another punch but I stopped him. He's muttering curses na ngayon ko lang narinig mula sakanya.

"Please Kegann stop." Tuluyan ng nahulog ang mga luha ko at kasabay nun ang pag bitiw ko sakanya.

He turn to face me and gave me a hug.
His green eyes were blood shot like mine.

He got off from hugging me and face Taus again.

"F*ck you man! Hailey isn't a hoe! And It's always been Hailey before anything and everyone else!" Hinigit ako ni Kegann papalayo sa mga taong na nag sisimula ng maki-usyuso.

Nag patuloy kami sa pag lalakad hanggang sa binuksan niya ang suite niya at pinaupo ako sa couch ng mini living room nito.

Tuloy parin ang agos ng mga luha ko, and it seems like they're not stopping anytime soon.

He opened a bottle of water for me and handed it to me.

"Drink Hailey." He said. I was able to finish it and he opened another bottle of water.

Napangalahatian ko yun bago inilagay sa lamesa.

He grabbed a box of tissue at sinumulang punasan ang mga luha ko.

While he's trying to wipe one tear another tear will escape.

"Hailey." Pagod na sabi niya.

I know, I know he's tired and he's tired of me. I have been hurting him since day one.

"Kegann I'm sorry." Pinigilan kong wag humagulhol but I failed miserably.

He enveloped me with a warm hug that I gladly responded.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for every bad thing I've caused you. I'm sorry Kegann." Halos hindi na ako makahinga sa pag iyak.

"Shhh. It's okay. Stop crying princess." Lalo akong napa hagulhol sa pag tawag niya saakin ng prinsesa.

"I'm sorry for hurting you." Still tears streaming down my face.

He got off from the hug and he chin up my face for me to meet his gaze.

Truth is Kegann has the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen. Every time I look at his green eyes i always being reminded why green is my favourite colour.

"Princess listen. I don't care being hurt or being in pain. If me being hurt means you'll be happy... then I will gladly be hurt just to see you happy."

"You don't know how much I love you that I can do all the impossible for you, to bear the impossible pain for you... because princess, you yourself is my impossible."

I have never experienced this kind of pain before. Not when my father tells me I am not good enough, Not every time I find out that blue has another girlfriend and not even when I feel alone.

This pain is new to me and it's on another level. It's killing me.

I hugged him tightly. So tight that it feels like my life depended on it.

He allowed me to hug him for a while until he started unclamping my arms on him.

Habang ginagawa niya iyon ay lalong nalulubog ang puso ko sa sakit.

"Now princess, let me wipe your tears away and finally send you back to your happiness. Because... that's what matters to me the most. To see you happy even if it doesn't includes me."