Saudade [COMPLETED]

Prologue

Lucky Blue Saleco: Epitome of an ideal man

"Lucky Blue Saleco is the epitome of an ideal man. He was born into the right family but never used it to reach where he is right now. All because of hard work and consistency, according to the young bachelor, (and we quote) "Success is the result of hard work and consistency, I have always been consistent and hard working in everything I do, I don't just put 100 percent on my work I always add another 100 percent."  With the achievement, status, and success of The Self Made Million Dollar Bachelor, ladies are flocking to tie him down! In time there's no doubt that there will be a LUCKY GIRL! But for now, the gorgeous bachelor will soar higher, and we cannot wait to see it more!"

I throw the magazine on the table in front of me.

"This is all bullshit! People are blinded! Even my parents! They only see that good stuff but never the bad!" I rolled my eyes and look back on the page where Lucky Blue Saleco is being featured. 

He's timidly smiling in the magazine. 

Piece of shit! I grab it again and throw it on the wall.

"I hate you Lucky Blue Saleco to depths!" I shouted it at the top of my lungs with so much rage, frustration and agony. 

"I only want your love Hailey, never your hate." He smirked deviously.

I was a bit shocked that he appeared out of nowhere, but my anger was stronger. My blood literally boiled.

"Over my dead body!" I shouted at him.

"Woah there! Calm down baby, I'm just teasing you, unless you really want to give me back your love, so you're so affected?" He laughed seductively.

I can't fucking believe this! How can he just joke around me considering all the shit he made me go through!?

"I can't imagine how you can sleep at night with pile of lies within you! It's sad that you're not who you portray to be. You are nothing but a faker! You're so good at fooling people around you! You're manipulative!" I walked up to him and hit him in the chest.

"Aren't you good at those too Haiz? You manipulate someone else too! That make us even." His voice is spitting of anger and sarcasm.

I looked at him straight in the eye. "I never manipulated anyone! I am not like you!"

"Really? Who are you trying to convince Haiz? Yourself? Your heart is full of hate, and wrath is eating you up. You think we're not the same? Think again Haiz." The way he said every word was with pure of anger and pain.

My heart was broken by his words. Yes, he was right that my heart is full of hate, but I got no choice! I just needed to do what I had to do. I never intended to hurt someone else.

"Every fucking day you are giving me reason to hate you more and regret that I ever loved you in this lifetime! I feel so sorry to myself that it's you. It's you that I chose over and over before...." He captured my two hands and firmly hold it. I felt so weak.

"So why can't you just choose me again Haiz?" His eyes are pure of fire, fury and sadness.

"Blue you have given me enough reasons not to. If this is winning for you then, you haven't won completely because you will never have my heart back."  I grab my things and run out of his office.

"Hailey!" I hear him call me before I completely shut the door.