Saudade [COMPLETED]

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

"Chin up Hailey! Concentrate honey!" Maarteng sabi ng trainer kong si Mandy. He's gay and one of the best professional trainers for beauty queens.

"There! You're doing great!" Pumalakpak siya at mukhang nagustuhan niya ang ginagawa ko kaya ipinag patuloy ko ito.

I gracefully ramp like I already won, That's what mandy has been telling me. Mandy told me that he trained the beauty queen who recently won a major beauty pageant international at ang kauna unahang pinaka batang Filipino model na nakuha sa Victoria Secret si Lily Hudgens.

"Mandy, you mentioned that you trained Lily Hudgens before?" Mandy nodded so I continue. "I met her once sa party ng President ng Saleco group of companies 2 years ago but sa mga recent years wala na. Sobrang busy niya ba sa modelling kaya hindi na siya nakaka attend?" Mandy looked at me.

"Hailey honey it's not my story to tell but just to give you a heads up hindi na talaga siya a attend sa kahit anong Saleco related parties though as what I've heard Zoeva Saleco has been keen on sending her invites. Probably because of her breaking up with Zanis, nahihiya na siguro dahil kasi sabi nila ipinag palit ni Lily si Zanis sa modelling. But that's very contradicting to what happened with her modelling career. Lily already gave up modelling, bumalik lang siya noong naghiwalay na sila." What happened is kinda messed up, kung ganoon nga then there must be a different reason.

I shrugged.

"Sorry Mandy I'm a huge fan of Lily Hudgens kaya curious lang ako." I smiled at him so does he.

"Have you met Zanis? Omg! Hindi lang siya ang gwapomg Saleco! Actually all of them! Zanis, Skye, Vrytonn, Blue and the other Saleco overseas! These males can ask every female in the world to move mountains for them. Goodness! Malayo palang e luluhod kana!" Tumawa ng malakas si mandy. Natatawa na naiiling na lang ako.

It's bad to talk about other people lives behind their backs but look what I'm doing...Talking behind their backs.

"Do you like a specific Saleco? Zanis perhaps?" Usyoso ni mandy.

"No Mandy, I don't like Zanis that way. I shipped him with Lily that's all." I smiled timidly.

"But you didn't answer me kung may gusto kang Saleco, so that means meron?" He was so good in finding things that isn't even there. Too good for my own liking. Napangiwi ako.

"Lucky Blue Saleco right?" To say I was petrified was an understatement.

"Ho—how?"

"How did I know? Well simple, siya lang naman yung schoolmate mo and it was just a guess but I think I am right!" He winked at me.

Only me, Ria and Blue know my feelings, but I think included na si mandy.

"Don't worry baby girl your secret is safe with me, plus I just have one condition..." He smirked.

"Anything?" He right brow raised.

"Win this." I smiled. Smiled determinedly.

"Done deal."

Nag patuloy kami ni mandy sa training, now a little comfortable with him than ever.

***

Hinatid ako ni mandy sa sundo ko bago siya sumakay sa kotse niya. He even kiss me on my left cheek.

I'm already inside the van noong nakita kong halikan si Blue ng schoolmate kong si Patricia! The worst is blue is so enjoying it with the way he held and caress Patricia!

My tears came crushing down like a water falls.

Alam ko naman yung mga ganito niya e, him exploring with other girls, but masakit pala kapag nakita mo with your own two eyes.

"Ma'am Hailey? Okay lang po ba kayo?" Tanong saakin ng body guard kong si Ernest.

"Yes kuya Ernest, I'm just a little exhausted. Let's go." Umandar na ang van at nakita ko pang napalingon si Blue sa sasakyan namin.

Yes blue! Someone caught you in your adventure time!

Ngayon lang ata ako nag pasalamat na wala pa ang mga magulang ko. My eyes are bloodshot and I looked like a mess. A complete mess.

I went straight in the shower, cry my heart out and looked in the mirror.

I washed my face yet again. I opened the paper bag from my dermatologist and applied every product in my face.

Imbis na iiyak ko to mabuti pa ipaganda ko nalang. Nag blower ako, nag apply ng lotion, I took hair vitamins and when I felt contented I grab my diary.

Dear diary,

Ang sakit ng puso ko, I have been hurt by him multiple times but never this hurt. Me seeing him in the act feels like someone ripped of my heart. This is probably my worst heart ache ever but I think I should expect for more. Kasi in books and in movies the more you love the more you feel. Pain is part of the feeling I'm expecting. This pain really made me realise that I'm really in love with him cause kung hindi naman I wouldn't hurt this bad e. Yet still regardless of everything I'm still here willing to love him despite the pain.

Love, Haiz.

I just wipe all the tears before I finally fell asleep.

***

Kinaumagahan hindi ko na naubatan ang parents ko. Manang just prepared food for me quite a lot than usual dahil hindi ako nakapag dinner kagabi.

"Manang I'm so full." Napangiwi ako ng dagdagan niya pa ng pancake at bacon ang plato ko.

"Hindi ka kumain kagabi paanong busog kana? Hala sige kain." Hindi siya umalis sa tabi ko hanggang hindi ako sumusubo.

"Manang I'll get fat with the calories from this e alam mo naman pong may pageant ako." Napakurap kurap si manang ng ma realise ang sinabi ko.

"Hay talaga ikaw na bata ka! Sige na." I kissed her on her left cheek sa tuwa.

"Thanks manang! Sana po puro vegetables and fruits nalang po mostly ang e-prepare mo saakin para po I'd win." Kinindatan ko siya.

"Osiya mag ingat ka!" I waived at her saka dumiretso sa kotse.

It's Saturday but I have a training with Mandy, she asked me to go to QC sa office niya sa "True Queens" so we could use the amenities there.

"Honey!" Masiglang bati niya.

My eyes roam around while we're gracing the place. So many pictures of supermodels and title holder beauty queens.

Nag simula na kami sa puspusan na training, the only rest I had was for lunch then training ulit. It was so exhausting especially with 6 inches heels but overall very enjoyable!

The training ended at 7pm, dapat 6pm but some of Mandy's co trainers assessed me. Sinabi nila na I can be a supermodel and beauty queen I just politely smiled. Gustohin ko man yun but of course my parents won't agree kasi ako lang naman ang tagapag mana nila.

Mandy and I ate, I invited my body guard and driver but they told me they'll just wait. Kinda guilty na naghintay sila for so long but they assured me na that's their job so it's okay but still I bought them food.

"You're doing great honey! Just keep doing it and sayo na ang korona." She said giggling.

"I'm really praying for it sana nga Mandy." I smiled.

Hindi ko naman hawak ang takbo ng mundo maraming pwedeng mangyari, I am not yet prepared but I have to.

I'll expect for the worst and hope for the best kasi ganon naman.

The dinner ended and so I went home without my parents again. What else is new?