REMEMBER // Calum Hood

Two // michael

Im never drinking again

I type on my phone and send Lis, feeling like I'm two seconds away from going mental. I haven't gotten out of bed ever since I came back from Calum's house, on Saturday morning. I remained locked inside my bedroom trying to deal with the crazy thoughts in my head and fighting the growing urge to scream.

Why isn't Lis answering her fucking phone?

I need someone to tell me I'm overreacting. Someone that will tell me everything is going to be okay - much like Ryan used to do, but of course I can't talk to him about this. Or about anything else, seeing as we agreed it would be better for both of us if we went our separate ways and cut ties completely.
It is better this way, I remind myself.
But today, out of all days, Lis decided not to answer her phone, Drew went out with his friends while Jason has a girl with him in his bedroom and there was no way I could talk about this with my brother.

What if I got pregnant?

My life would be over. I would have to tell my parents I had sex with a stranger and beg that they help me raise a kid by myself. There's no way I can afford a child with the misery I receive in my paycheck. I would also have to drop college and ruin any chances of having a successful future. Or I could go after Calum and say I was expecting his baby, which he obviously wouldn't believe straight away. He would ask for a DNA test and everyone would think I'm a gold digger seeing as he is rich and famous.

I said I was going mental.

Today, I was supposed to meet my parents for lunch, like we do every Sunday but I cancelled on them because I don't feel like leaving this bed. My head is already all over the place and I can't keep a train of thought - the last thing I need is my mom asking me if I still keep in touch with Ryan. We broke things off 3 months ago and Calum was the first guy I kissed since then. I never planned on having sex with anyone that soon, let alone a complete stranger. I don't do one night stands. Never had, at least, not before Calum. Ryan was my first and had been my only one until that night. The mere thought of Ryan gives me all mixed feelings because he is a great guy that has been such an important part of my life for so long. For 4 years he was the person I'd go to, he was the person I could count on and the one that knew every single thing about me. We grew up together, only to grow apart after the years.

How are you supposed to erase someone out of your life just like that?

Go back to being strangers with the one person that knew my deepest secrets. It's weird to not have Ryan around or not be able to tell him what's going on in my life. I know we made the right call breaking things off but I can't help but miss his presence sometimes.

"Wanna watch a movie?"
Drew's voice startles me, snapping out of my thoughts and bringing me back to reality. To my bedroom, where I didn't even hear him walking into.
"You don't even need to get up" He adds when I don't answer "I can bring my laptop and we watch it in here"
A smile makes its way to my lips.
"Is it that obvious?"
"Well, I made frittatas" Drew sits by the end of the bed "And you haven't eaten... Which means something is obviously wrong"
Drew is an amazing cook that likes to try out his new recipes on me, preparing for the day he will open his own bistro. I'm more than glad to be part of his experiment because it means I get to try delicious foods.
"Movie then?" He insists "It's either this or heart to heart talk, you choose"
I laugh at his joke, agreeing to watch the movie if he makes us some popcorn. Deep in my heart, I'm thankful for living with two of my best friends and for not having to be alone right now.

I could really use a break from my own thoughts.

"I heard a laugh?" Jason bursts into the room "You made her laugh?"
He glances between Drew and I with a frown on his face.
"I'm very good at my job" Drew brags
"Did you bribe her with food?"
"I don't need to bribe her I just need not to be useless like you"
"I'm not useless" Jason defends himself "I just can't cook, not all of us want to be a chef"
"Not all of us were raised with international chefs cooking their every meal" Drew fires back and if I didn't know any better I'd think they are being serious
The good side of being friends with them for over 10 years.
"Enough both of you" I roll my eyes at their childish bickering "Movie and pizza?"
"Hell yeah" Drew cheers
He helps me off the bed and I'm soon embraced in a group hug, something that doesn't happen often in this house.
"You two are so embarrassing" I tease them, just because
They're being overly cute about this whole thing and I simply couldn't let it go unnoticed.
"You had to ruin the moment. You just had to" Jason leaves out a groan, exiting my bedroom
The three of us go to our small living room, which also happens to be the only room with a TV. While Drew and I debate over the movie we are watching, Jason orders our dinner.
"Let me just see if I got it right" Drew says while we wait for the pizza "You went to an awesome party, had a great time, slept with the hot dude in a band and spent the night in a wicked house?"