OLIVIA'S POV
For a moment we sat in this intimate position. My head snuggled into the nape of his necks with his fingers slowly and repeatedly dragging down my spine.
Bliss. This was nothing but pure bliss.
After all Harry and I had been through, it seemed like it would and will always be bad days, and never a pure moment of pure good. But right now I was enjoying the silence, the warmth, the intimacy, the gestures. I was enjoying him.
"Will you come back home?" He whispered softly probably thinking I was asleep.
"Harry" I sat up looking him directly in his eyes. "I can't keep doing this... if I leave again, I won't come back" I said meaning every word and hidden meaning behind the sentence. "Promise you won't drive me away, promise you'll be here for us"
"I"
"Promise me" I spat a little harder with tears coming to my eyes. "One day soon, our kids are gonna need you. They're gonna need you to help them, to explain what's happening, to be there. So please promise me..."
"I promise" he put his forehead to mine and wiped my eyes. "I promise. I promise I won't drive you away again. I promise that I will always be there for our children"
He kissed my cheek before kissing my lips. It started out slow and intensified as I writhed my hand up to his hair.
I could feel his arousal grow as I started grinding against him.
He lifted me up a bit cause me to giggle, but then he lowered me down and my expression was taken over by pure pleasure.
"Slow and steady" he whispered. "I don't wanna fuck, I want to make love" he looked at me.
And I nodded before placing my hands on both of his shoulders. "I love you" I softly moaned as his slow movements sent quick waves of pleasure through me.
"I love you" he whispered back.
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"Here you can wear this" he handed me his button up. It was oversized— of course.
"Thank you" I threw it on and grabbed my shoes and clothes. Before I stepped towards the door Harry grabbed them from me and smiled.
"I got it love" I walked out knowing that Harry would follow behind me.
Until a man bumped into me harshly.
"Fuck" I groaned slowly rubbing my back.
"I'm so sorry, ma'am" he spoke from the dark letting it shadow over his face.
"Watch it asshat" Harry raved. "Here" his hand was stuck out and he pulled me up. He looked back and the man was no longer there.
We walked out of the house hand in hand. It felt amazing to be holding hands, to show public affection again.
"Hey, there's Liam!" I smiled. It had been awhile since I've seen him.
"This is his party"Harry laughed squeezing my hand slightly and pulling me into him. He released my hand and threw his arm around me, I did the same.
"Is that Olivia?" He smiled as he laid his eyes on me. "Well hasn't it been quite some time"
"Not for me" Louis joked.
"Shut up" I furrowed my head into Harry's side to hide the blush creeping over my face.
"Well, mates Liv and I are gonna get going... I'll meet you guys in the studio at four" and they nodded before going back to the party. "Let's go love, I'm drained"
We hopped into his car, granted I didn't drive mine here cause I assumed I would get drunk.
"Earlier you said you needed a distraction" Harry broke the silence as music softly played behind his voice. "What did you mean?"
"There's just been a lot on mind— the company, the kids, Shawn, myself, you"
"Why would you need a distraction from Shawn?" He asked curiously not trying to seem to bothered or interested.
"I tried to force myself into loving him to forget you. I literally put every bad thought and memory about him to the side. But it didn't work, simply because he wasn't you" I leaned my head against his arm. I felt his stiff body relax.
"Oh" he said.
"Pfft, don't act like you aren't pleased"
"Heh" he sighed with a grin. "You know me so well"
I tried to stay awake with him. I tried. With my head bobbing up and down a little to hardly to the quiet music.
"You can lean you seat back, love" Harry interrupted my thoughts. "You don't have to stay awake, I'm fine"
"You sure?"
"Positive"
I leaned the seat back and stared at the moving sky through the sunroof. My eyes felt heavier and heavier soon letting me drift off with Harry's hand in mine, tucked under the other.
"I love you" he murmured before I sealed off from the world.
Since I've Harry left, I haven't slept as good as I have in that car. I'd toss and turn, wake up in the middle of the night, reach out in my bed for a body that wasn't there. It was horrible. I'd have nightmares of Shawn turning his back on me and suffocating me in my sleep, or the ones of Desmond lurking around every shadowed corner.
I never felt safe. I didn't feel secure. Not until this very moment.
HARRY'S POV
I knew this was about to get harder. Once her trust was at least somewhat there, I knew she loved me again. But I knew this meant that every single action would be watched, every word would be over analyzed. I knew that this would mean that I'm on this ice.
But there's something bothering her. I've known this woman for years now, and to say that I know her like the back of my hand, would be nothing but the truth.
She's honest, and I know she would lie to me unless she needed to. But I know she's lying. From the depths of my core, I know she's hiding something. And I will find it.
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