Magcon fan fiction - Waves

Chapter 47

Hayes POV

I didn't sleep that night after coming back from Hazel's.

I sat in my bed my fingers trembling, I wanted to throw my phone out the window and cry myself to sleep.

The texts were constantly coming, Dylan sometimes Tyler.

' Your disgusting, what are you even doing here'

'Go back to where your from, no one wants you here'

'Leave you worthless piece of shit. Just go'

'Hazel has told me what a loser you are'

'Your pathetic, you don't deserve friends or anyone actually'

'Hazels is going out with me, but doesn't tell you since you'd probably kill yourself'

Each text that came my way felt like another hit to the face or a kick to the stomach.

The screen flashed with a new angry message every ten seconds.

It was if they had planned this cruel torture on me but I couldn't stop reading them.

I was soaking in every last word like retaining information from a book.

After two hours they finally stopped. I felt myself getting shaky, my forehead sweating.

I lay in bed suffering in silence, trying to tackle my anxiety attack but it was useless. Like me I guess-

Useless, worthless, pathetic, a waste of space.

Finally the texts stopped and I put down my phone next to my bed.

I lay back breathing heavily.

I just wanted to close my eyes and forget about everything.

I wanted to be with Hazel again, but something told me I couldn't.

I wished that I could surf with her one last time and savour every last minute I spent with her in the waves.

I was never going to be good enough for her, and I knew it was time.

I felt myself falling asleep.

My phone started vibrating, the last text I got.

My fingers were shaking when I picked up my phone, I could already see what was on the screen.

'Kill yourself'