Magcon fan fiction - Waves

Chapter 53

Song- Ben Howard~ Depth over Distance.

He looked up at me with those bright blue eyes, full of tears.

"Why are you her-"

I ran at him pulling him into my arms, holding him tightly against my chest.

He was alive, Hayes was alive. I could breath again, I could think.

I was never going to let go of him, I sobbed for minutes on end, my tears falling into Hayes hair.

"Why! Why would you do this?"I cried holding his head against mine.

My tears were endless, cascading down my face like a waterfall.

He looked up at me, with sad sad blue eyes.

I watched the tears trickle down his face and I felt my heart slowly break.

"How did you find me"

He broke into tears his head collapsed against my shoulder and he wept for ages. I saw the fragile young boy he always was, afraid of his own feelings.

I sat there curled up next to him with my arms wrapped tightly around his shivering body.

He was badly bruised and his body was covered in blood and sand.

I couldn't even bring myself to inspect the damage.

We sat there crying until there was nothing left.

I took his hand and entwined my fingers in his and he gripped it tightly.

I saw my bracelet tied around his wrist, my sovenior.

I still couldn't believe he had survived.

"You need to go" he whispered "Leave me"

"No!"

He closed his eyes for a second and took a deep breath.

"Hazel do you not see it? I'm worthless, I'm nothing! I don't deserve you, or anyone. I deserve to die Hazel can't you just accept that? I know you see it too. I hate myself I can't bear to look at you and realise how disgusting and hopeless I am. I can't live like this knowing I'm nothing but a failure and disappointment. I couldn't even kill myself.

Every time, every single time I think everything is gonna be ok, it gets bad. I can't sleep, I can't even think straight all I want to do is kill myself. So leave me. Leave me die Hazel. I will never ever be good enough for someone like you"

I couldn't speak. The words kept rolling out of his mouth and with each sentence I became more and more horrified.

How could someone think this?

" Hayes I don't care what you think. All I know is that you are the most amazing person I have ever met and living without you would be pointless. I'm going to keep you safe and protect you the way you did to me. I will be on your side, always. You don't have to be afraid anymore.You don't need to hide it from me, I can help you. Your the strongest person I know Hayes Grier and I love you."

My face was streaming with tears and Hayes looked shocked, confused.

"You wh-at"

I cupped his face in my head and kissed him before he could say any more.

I could feel the electricity running through my body and the heat beneath my finger tips when I touched him.

I pulled away gently, only centimetres from his face.

"Let me save you"

He nodded slowly and I took his hand and he held it tightly, trying to wipe away his tears.

I had never seen his cry like that and it brought out so many different emotions in me.

I helped him up putting his arm around my shoulder and we began to walk out towards the mouth of the cave.

He winced with every step, I could only imagine how long he had been here.

We stood on rocks and I waved screaming and yelling for Jack.

I saw the boat floating through the sea, coming in our direction.

Everyone was standing up jumping and waving.

Mom and Elizabeth screaming at us, I could hear their cries.

We were safe, Hayes was safe.

I held onto his hand, refusing to let him go.

I had let him slip once and I was never ever going to let him again.

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I watched it all happen in front of me, I have never seen anything as beautiful.

I helped Hayes to swim over to the boat, telling him not to give up. I never let go of his hand, I had to keep him safe.

I could feel him slipping out of my reach, like he was trying to escape.

Each time I grabbed him tighter, never letting him out of my sight.

We could do it, we were nearly there.

Nash pulled me up to the side of the boat, Jack and Cameron helped lift Hayes's injured body.

Elizabeth stood up suddenly looking at the son she thought she had lost.

"My baby"

Hayes began to cry letting his mom pick him up like a little boy holding him in her strong capable arms.

They sat down together, holding each other tightly.

"You can never ever leave me" she sobbed holding his head in her arms and kissing his forehead.

Nash looked down at his brother, caught for words.

"Hayes, I thought I had lost you" he cried collapsing down beside him, putting his head in his hands. His cries were loud and heart breaking.

Hayes patted his brothers back, putting an arm around his shoulder.

I watched the family, so innocent and beautiful, sat closely together as if they would never move, they cared about each other so much.

That's the thing about family, you can never leave them.

Standing there in the cold Jack put his arm around me and kissed my forehead.

My mom was clung to Jacks side.

She beckoned Cameron to come over to her and she held him in her arms.

Cameron began to cry, we all stood there in the boat crying and smiling at how amazing it was.

Hayes put his hand out looking over at me.

I slowly walked over to him and took his hand in mine, squeezing it tightly.

Elizabeth pulled me into the hug and Cameron followed me hugging Hayes telling him how much he meant to him and how scared he had been.

You see, Hayes was never worthless, pathetic, hopeless.

Dylan had been completely wrong.

He was everything and we would of been nothing without him.

He just needed to know that he was cared for, that we loved him.