Magcon fan fiction - Waves

Chapter 50

Song- Birdy~ Not about angels

"His board" I yelled.

They looked over at me with confusion.

"His surfboard, it's gone! He went swimming, he's at the beach"

They all looked at me then the surfboard rack.

"We need to go!" I yelled impatiently.

Mom looked down at Elizabeth who had burst into fresh tears.

"There's only one reason he would go to the sea in this weather" she said her face nothing but sadness and guilt.

She explained Hayes condition his endless anxiety, depression.

I never knew.

I was his best friend and I never knew.

I hated myself for not knowing, not caring.

I could of stopped him.

What she said seemed to register with everyone and I suddenly felt sick, I was petrified by my own thoughts.

He wouldn't do that I thought he cant.

"We have to look for him" I said softly.

Jack put an arm around me protectively.

"The sea is too rough, there's no way he could possibly.." Jack couldn't bring himself to finish his sentence but we all knew what he meant.

Nash kicked the wall furiously.

"I should of known! I could of stopped this" his tears were falling and he sat down on the deck.

Jack ran to his side wrapping his arms around his big frame.

I felt hopeless.

I was so confused, why had Hayes gone.

I didn't want to believe what everyone else was thinking.

"We need to get a boat, and go look for him" I heard myself say.

I clenched my fists, standing up straight with determination.

Nash looked up at me nodded.

"C'mon let's go, dad's rib is down at the pier" he said standing up.

"Cameron should know" Elizabeth said.

"He's like my own son too"

Jack nodded going in to get Cameron. We ran to the car shortly joined by Jack and a worried Cameron.

"My baby is alive" Elizabeth kept saying on the drive down to the pier.

She had her head down her hands pressed together, praying.

"My baby is alive"

No one else could say anything. Maybe because we knew it wasn't true, or we didn't want to raise our hopes.

I was squished in beside Cameron, I still couldn't take in what was happening.

He had hid everything from me for so long.

I had fell for his smile and his glittering blue eyes, unable to see the sad broken boy hiding beneath.

He was just trying to look for an escape from his misery.

I could only think of everything he had done for me and I let this happen to him.

I felt my cheeks getting wet, tears escaping the sides of my eyes.

Cameron looked over at me and put an arm around me.

" It's gonna be ok" he whispered.

"It's not" I sobbed. I would never be able to forgive myself.

I had never seen what was happening right infront of my eyes, and will never forget the guilt I felt.

He looked at me with confusion.

"I broke your promise Cameron" I cried.

"I never looked out for Hayes, I promised you"