Accidents make perfection

Chapter 13

Mare POV

I'm an idiot, i said too much, I said things I didn't mean. I got so angry about Shade I felt like I needed to hurt him back. It was stupid and childish of me.

When I get to my room and crawled into bed I started crying. After what feels like days of crying I hear a knock on the door, I get up and answer It.  As soon as I opened the door I immediately get tackled with a hug "woah" I say Evangeline pulls away "are you ok?" She says "I heard you crying from my room what happened" she asks. I lead her to my bed and she sits with me "I.. I said... things...I shouldn't...have said to cal." I say choking back tears "and now he hates me !" I yell and start balling my eyes out Evangeline pulls me into a hug and lets me cry for a while.

After about 20 minuets I finally calm down "do you want to leave early?" She asks, I don't think I can face him after what I said. I just nod in response "alright, I'll go arrange plans to leave tomorrow morning ok?" She says "ok" I say weakly "get some rest ok." She says and leaves me alone. I crawl back into bed and and fall straight asleep. The next morning I leave with Evangeline to Archeon to take a flight back to Montfort. I never see Cal or hear about him before I leave, Julian and Sara say goodbye. Sara gives me a very long hug and gives me a sympathetic look. I think it's about what happened with me and Cal but she seems a lot more sympathetic.

When we get home I go straight to my house and go to my room. My mom try's to ask me what happened but I just ignore her question. After a week, and a lot of poking and prodding from Kilorn I get out of bed and explain what happened to my family. My brothers say they're going to beat him up, I laugh at that. My father is furious, even though I tell them it was my fault. My mother just comforts me and tells me that he'll come through. Gisa just turns beat red with fury band doesn't say anything. Kilorn gives me a hug and tells me that everything will be alright. I get so overwhelmed I start to cry. I don't know why I never cry like this but I ignore it and blame it on me sleeping so much.

4 weeks after my fight with Cal he still hasn't sent back any messages, I send him one every day about how I'm doing but he never says anything back. Julian tells me that he's doing fine but he's being really short tempered. One night, while I'm eating dinner with my family I start to feel sick, I try to push it back but as soon as I take a bite of my food a huge wave of nausea comes over me, I cover my mouth with my hand and run to the bathroom. I heave over the toilet and it feels like everything I've eaten that day comes back out. Kilorn comes into the bathroom and holds back my hair for me, after a while the nausea finally starts to fade Kilorn guides me to my room and puts me on my bed "you feeling ok?" He asks, I just shake my head scared that if I open my mouth I'll start to throw up again.

It's been 5 days that I've been throwing up, Kilorn comes to visit me in the mornings. "Are you going to be coming to lunch today?" He asks "what?" I say "lunch with Farley, Evangeline, Elane, and Gisa." He says "shit I forgot about that" I say "you don't have to come if you're not feeling well" he says but I haven't left my house in 5 days so I should try to get out "no it fine I'll go, I should get ready now though" I say "alright I'll let you get ready, I'll pick you up at 12 ok" he says I nod.

I take a shower and try to find an outfit to wear but none of my bras will fit, I shove my breast into  one of my bras, and I instantly regret it. I almost crumble to the floor in pain "agh what the hell" I say, once I finally find a bra that fits I put it on. I try to find a good shirt to wear but non of them fit either. I end up going with a red dress that stops at my knees.

When Kilorn comes to pick me up his eyes go exactly where I didn't want them to "stop it" i say plainly "uh sorry" he says and drives off "ok let me answer the question burning In your mind" I say and he relaxes a bit "I have no idea what is happening but non of my bras fit and non of my shirts either." He glanced at my face for a second and sees my frustration. The rest of the car ride is silent. When we get there I see that everyone is waiting for us. As I'm walking in everyone's is staring at the same place. Kilorn takes off his jacket and hands it to me "thank you" I say and sit down everyone just stares "can we focus on something else please" I say and start to blush "mhm Well.., Eve and I have some news." Elane says and a big smile crosses her and Evangeline's faces "what is it?" Farley asks "Elane holds up her hand "were engaged" they both say "oh my god" Gisa squeals and gets up to hug them "congratulations you two"Farley says following Gisa to give them a hug "it's about damn time" Kilron says I get up and walk over to Evangeline and give her a hug "congrats Eve" I say but she hugs too tight and I yelp every one looks at me "sorry just don't hug so tight" I say and message my breasts. "Ok I've had enough of this, Mare have you taken a pregnancy test since you got back" Farley says "no why" I say she sighs and says "sit down" and everyone follows.

"How long has it been since you last saw Cal" she asks I think for a second "I don't know" I say "6 weeks" Evangeline says. How does she know that? "Well that makes sense then." Everyone looks at me but I still don't see what they're getting at "what makes sense." I ask "Mare, when I was pregnant with Clara I started to get sick, my breasts grew three times their size and they where very what's the word fragile" she says "what are you trying to say" I ask "Mare we think you might be pregnant." Kilorn says. "Oh" I say "oh my god, I'm I'm pregnant." I start to hyperventilate and I feel a wave of nausea come over me, I run to the bathroom, once I get there I start to throw up Farley comes running in and starts to run my back and hold back my hair. I start to cry as I'm dry heaving. After a while of trying to throw up it finally stops. Farley helps me up "sit on the counter" she says I do as I'm told. She wets a paper towel and starts to clean my face "what am I going to do?"