Accidents make perfection

Chapter 28

Cal POV

Mare is now 15 weeks pregnant, she's cute pregnant but now she has so much energy, she always wants to do something even after training all day. But I'm always drained, when I'm gone I try to do too much I wear myself out. So when I get home all I want to do is sleep and chill, but Mare wants to go to the park or make a bunch of food. Which she has been eating a lot too, every time I see her she's usually snacking on a bag of nuts or crackers. "Wake up sleepy head" I hear mare say "and good morning to you too." I say and she laughs, I look up at her and her growing belly, we've been taking pictures each week of how big her belly is getting and it's been growing a lot lately, her body image issues come and go depending on the day "so I made you some breakfast" she says and gets up, she grabs a bed table with pancakes and orange juice "thank you, but you didn't have to." I say "I just wanted to apologize for last night, I asked Holly and she said it was normal, and I want to apologize for making you do all these things since you've been back, I know you just wanted to relax" she says and I smile. I pat the spot next to me to signal to Mare, she comes around and sits next to me "it's no problem" I say. Last night Mare was basically begging me to have sex with her but I was so drained that I just didn't think it would be a good idea. She got angry and stormed off, going to bed was really awkward. Mare didnt want to kick me out of bed but she also didn't want to be in the same room as me. We ended up cuddling and apologizing to each other. We eat the pancakes together while watching tv in bed, it's probably the happiest I've been since I got back I almost forget about the fact that I have to leave tomorrow morning. Once we're done I set the tray on the dresser next to the bed, I start rubbing cercles on Mares belly and she smiles "Holly told me that I could start feeling the baby move next week" she says "really?" I say and she nods "ya but she said usually first time pregnancy's it doesn't happen until around 20-25 weeks so don't get your hopes up" she says and I laugh, I start to kiss her belly and I see that she enjoys that "you like that?" I ask, she bites her lip and nods. So I continue, and it gets more and more intense.

Mare POV

I love him sooooooooo much, he so sexy and clean and nice and gentile. I don't know how I got him, I'm lying there on the bed panting from what just happened " you ok?" He asks and I nod "ya.... it's just..." I try to get the word out but I'm really winded so I take a deep breath "the baby is squishing my organs so there's not a lot of room for my lungs to expand" I say "oh, ok" he says back I'm kinda tired after it so I grab a pillow and hug it "I think I'm gonna take a nap" I say and he laughs "I think so too" he reply's and takes the pillow out of my hands and replaces it with his torso.

It's dark and I'm running, I don't know where I'm running but I don't stop. It's starts to get brighter and now I recognize some things around me. It gets a bit brighter and now I realize I'm not running from something but after something no not something someone. Maven. Once I realize that I'm chasing him the scenery changes and now I'm standing in a hallway of silent stone, I look around and then I see him on the ground, dead. I walk closer and I bend down to look at his face, he doesn't look like the maven I knew but the murderous, torturous, power hungry monster he became. Against my better judgment I reach to touch his face, but as soon as I get close his eyes shoot open and he grabs my shoulders he gives me a crooked smile "did you really think you could get rid of me that easily" he says.

Cal POV

I'm woken up by Mare screaming bloody murder next to me she sat up and kept screaming. I pull her into a hug "shshshshs Mare it's ok it was just a dream it's ok." I repeat and she starts balling her eyes out. She cry's for a good 30 minutes until she calms down, she's shaking a little so I warm her up a bit "I...I saw him." She says "he was dead and then... he woke up" she says and starts to cry again "it's ok it was just a dream. He's dead, I made sure of that" I say and she calms down a bit. "I haven't had a dream like that in almost a year." She says and it reminds me of when I had them but never admitted to it. We sit there in bed and I look at the clock it's 4 pm now "do you want to order food in?" I ask her and she silently nods in approval. We eat dinner and watch tv for a few more hours, then I remember I'm leaving tomorrow. I don't want to leave her after a nightmare like that "I can ask if I could stay another day if you want?" I say and she sighs "as much as I would want you to, you should go to end the war as soon as possible" she says and I let out a long breath "I just hate to leave you after that." I say and she laughs "it's fine really I'll be fine" she says and I don't know if she's lying on my behalf.

Mare POV (17 weeks pregnant)

I have a doctors appointment today and I'm going alone, Cal won't be back until tomorrow and I didn't want to bother anyone else with coming. I like having early appointments because I don't have to wait for her to be ready, I also don't like being there when there are other women talking and complaining. When I get to the office as usual no one is there I greet the receptionist and she does the whole weighing me, measuring me asking me questions. When I'm waiting I look at myself in the mirror, I look like I have a partially deflated beach ball under my shirt. If I'm being honest I'm really excited to meet the baby, I started picking out colours for the baby's room. As I'm admiring my bump Holly comes in "oh, hi, sorry I was just." I start and she smiles "no it's fine, it's nice to see you're getting over you image issues" she says and gestures for me to lie down "well I have my days" I say and do as she says, I lift up my shirt and she puts the gel on me, it's really cold and I hate it. I shiver when she starts to spreads it and she laughs "you never get used to it that's for sure" she says I hear the heart beat and nothing sounds so amazing to me "I love hearing that" I say "you know you can buy a Doppler to hear the heartbeat whenever you want." She says and I have a huge smile on my face "you know I never thought I'd be this excited and scared at the same time" I say "well the baby looks great, growing at a steady pace. You are having a very successful pregnancy miss Barrow but your blood pressure is pretty high so let's try and get that down ok" she says and I nod. We talk about taking birthing classes with a women she recommended, she said it was private and that she can come to our house whenever. That's the part I'm scared of, giving birth. When I look things up online people are always saying that they're not scared, that the want to see their baby weighs out the fear, but it's not for me. Once we finish talking she asks if I have any questions "actually I've been having nightmares about... my past lately and I think it's why my blood pressure's high." I say and she nods "if you don't mind me asking what are they about?" She asks I swallow hard "I don't know if you heard what I did" I say and she nods "well I have nightmares about Cal's brother, Maven." I say taking a deep breath trying to hold back tears "he held me captive for 6 months torturing me with whispers" I continue and the tears falling down my face but I keep my composure "I haven't had nightmares like that since a month after I got back" I say she just looks at me for a while "well, some women report having very vivid dreams when they get pregnant. I don't know why your brain is choosing to use bad memories for your dreams but I would go and see a psychologist in case they start getting worse." She suggests and I nod "ok thank you"