I Won't Give Up (A Big Time Rush Fanfiction)

Almost There

I'm starting school on the 25th! o.O And I hope you guys enjoy this chapter :) xoxoxo, Brooke

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JAMES' POV

So this was it. My final chemo session. Man, I couldn't believe it. After a year and nine months, I was finally going to finish this battle. That is, if my cancer was actually gone. As Dr. Rivers said, there were no guarantees, but we were all hopeful. I was feeling very confident, thanks to my family, friends, and my wonderful wife.

I was resting in the chemo room with the IV inserted, chemo flowing through me, while Jade held my hand. I was not feeling very well, but watching Jade and occasionally getting to feel our little ones kick was a great source of comfort. She was 24 weeks pregnant now and as beautiful as ever. They finally released her from the psychiatric ward two weeks ago and she had been doing very well, which I was incredibly proud of.

"You doing okay?" She whispered in my ear, pressing her lips to my cheek.

"Yeah, I guess." I whispered, giving her hand a squeeze. I just had a terrible realization. I forgot to wear the wristband. My anti-nausea wristband. My god, I'd been so excited about my chemo being over that I completely forgot to put it on this morning. Ugh! Now I had a horrible nauseous feeling in my stomach and the best I could was put my hand on Jade's stomach for comfort.

"Hey, I wanted to tell you something." She whispered. "I just want to say that I am so proud of you. Everything you've done, I am so proud of you. I still think about the day that I met you and how I didn't realize where we'd be nearly year from then. But we're married and we've got two handsome little boys on the way. I never saw that happening, but I do remember how cute I thought you were and how sweet...and how funny you were. Fast forward and I'm completely in love with you. Jay, I don't know w-what I'd do without you."

My eyes filled with tears and I gave her hand a squeeze, my heart truly touched by her kind words. I'd made so many connections here that I never made back at my old school. They had all abandoned me after my diagnosis, but the people I met during treatment never did. When I thought about it, I realized I had a whole lot to be grateful for.

"I love you so much." I said softly, gently kissing her shoulder. Then I laid my head on her shoulder and admired her enlarged stomach. She was much bigger than women with one baby would be, but she was gorgeous. Even in her maternity jeans and midnight blue maternity top, with her blonde hair in loose waves, she looked amazing.

"I love you t-Ugh, not again." She sat up, holding her stomach. More Braxton Hicks contractions for Jade. I felt pretty bad for her, but she said they weren't terrible, just really uncomfortable. Plus, Dr. Rivers said that it was completely normal at this point. The positive side was that she got to practice her breathing, which she would need during the actual birth.

"Okay," She breathed, carefully laying back down. "That's over."

"Hey, didn't your mom mention childbirth classes?"

"Yeah, she did." Jade sighed, rubbing her stomach. "I'm thinking about a Lamaze class they have here. You know, Lamaze is a technique where expectant mothers learn to trust their inner wisdom and make choices about their healthcare. I'll learn about coping strategies and breathing and postpartum care. Things like that."

"That'd be a good thing." I murmured, cringing as the nausea flared up. Gosh, why did I forget to wear the wristband?

"I'd like for you to join me in the classes." She said softly. "If you want to..."

"Of c-course I w-want to..." I murmured. Suddenly, I felt my stomach lurch, and I hurriedly grabbed the basin, emptying my stomach. Next thing I knew, Jade was sitting up and rubbing my back, whispering comforting words to me as I threw up everything I'd consumed that day, which wasn't very much. After about ten minutes, I removed my head from the basin, allowing Jade to carry it to the restroom.