You light me up

Understandings

***** LAUREN'S POV

I'm rubbing her jaw slowly and I can't bring myself to pull away. "She's a student of mine but, she's not like the rest. There's something about her I just need in my life." Before I can fully lean in on her though I hear George outside the door.

"Hello, anyone in here?,"he says. I can hear the doorknob turn. Sandra stands up quickly and grabs a random paper from off my desk. George walks in and suspects nothing as Sandra speaks.

"Thank you for explaining the assignment further for me Ms. James I really appreciate the help." I stand up and turn to her.

"You're welcome. You can email me with any further questions." She grabs her bag and quickly makes her leave. My heart is still fluttering and I can still feel the warmth of her face in my palm as I go to shake George's hand.

"Hey George, to what do I owe the pleasure of seeing you here?" He chuckles.

"The pleasure is all mine Lauren, I just wanted to come in and remind you that the parent teacher conferences are next week from Monday through Friday." I nodded and he left without further questions. Once he closed the door I sat at my desk and began thinking to myself. "What if he had seen us, I'd of been fired on the spot. This can't go on it's too risky." I got up and whined out loud.

"UUUUGH BUT I LIKE HER AND SHE'S SOO CUTE." I brought my hands up to my face and dragged them down slowly. I grabbed my things and left the classroom. When I got home there she was. I felt butterflies in my stomach. She was sitting on the steps playing with her hands. The door to my car shut and she looked up. We smiled at each other and went inside.

"We need to talk," I told her. She nodded and we sat on my couch.

"Listen, this is something really risky and we could have really gotten in trouble today." Sandra was just staring at me waiting to see what I had to say. "Aww she's a great listener" I shook my head. I took her hand in mine. "This is something too risky for us and I don't think it's the best choice we could make." She took a deep breath and took her hand back.

"Ok, if that's how you feel then that's what we'll do." I had unshed tears in my eyes that I can feel burning up. That's not at all how I feel but that's what has to happen. What I want is to hold her, kiss her, be able to be seen in public, be away from the threat of jail. Sadly, that can't happen. I'm the teacher and the adult who signed the contract with the school that said I wouldn't do this.

"I think I should go." She got up, but I didn't want her to go. It would be a bad move for me to stop her however, I had to let her go.

"Hey,"I called after her. Slowly she turned with her hand still on the door handle.

"Yeah?," she asked. I went on and hugged her while I spoke.

"We can still be friends," I whispered. She went back to the door and opened it.

"I'll take you anyway I can have you." With that she left. I put my back to the door and let myself fall. The words she just spoke are still running around in my head and it broke my heart to have to have done that to her.

*****SANDRA'S POV

I made my way back home not wanting to cry in front of her. She was right she had every reason to say what she said. I just wish it didn't have to be like this and we could be together. I miss her right now I literally miss her. There's something about not being able to have her that just makes me want her more. I went straight into my room after I got home. I passed out on my bed thinking about our almost kiss.

"Sandra sweetie get up." I got up slowly and opened my door.

"Mom it's Saturday please let me sleep." She handed me a roll of money, and a small box. "What this?" She hugged me.

"Sandie, I'm going on a trip for my job and I'll be gone for a few weeks. This is enough money to get you through more than two months just in case and this," she pointed at the box. "Is an alarm clock since I won't be here to wake you up." All this was happening to fast and it took me while for everything to sink in. "Fuck ok then" I took the supplies from her hands and set them on my desk. I went in for another hug and held her longer this time.

"You do what you want mom it's ok, just make sure to call me whenever you can." She nodded and took her bags down the stairs. "The one person I need to be there for me is leaving, it's not like my mom can give me advice on dating a teacher though." With one last wave goodbye she left. I watched as her car drove off and then with a quick turn I was all alone. I turned to look down the street towards Lauren's house. She was standing besides her car. Obviously she had seen everything. With the raise of my hand I waved at her and she gave me a wave back before I walked back inside. I pulled out my phone and called Mae. She only lived a block away and I wanted to know if she'd come over. I filled her in on what happened with my mom.

"I'll be there in five." she said. Exactly five minutes later she arrived with a huge bag.

"What's all this?" I asked. She gave me a look as if to say 'Are you serious'.

"This you idiot, is make up. We are going OUT tonight." I laughed and agreed to go out. Not that I had much of a choice. In a few hours we were dressed to the dime and it was time to go out. Mae go into the driver's seat of my car and I went to the passenger side. We went down Lauren's side of the street and I could see her light on." What I would do to be able to be alone with her." I shook those thoughts from my head and enjoyed the car ride. We came to a stop in front of a two story house. WTF.

"Mae where are we?"I asked.

"This is Esme Green's house I thought we could invite her since it's been three months and she still doesn't talk to a lot of people." She honked the horn. "I also happen to know she's gay and thought you should try it with someone our age." I was going to snap at her before the front door opened. Esme was in a short black dress similar to mine. I have to admit she looked great.

"Hey guys," she said in a small voice. Mae turned to her.

"Are you ready to get fucked up?" Esme laughed and nodded her head. The ride to the party was short and once we got there Mae was pulled into a group of beer pong players. Esme turned to me.

"I guess it's just you and me now."

Hey guys new update. Hope you enjoy this. Lets all wait and see what happens with Esme and Sandra at this party.