Shawn Mendes Imagines Part 3 {COMPLETED}

121. "I'm Scared."

A/n: Okay so first of all, I don't want anyone to get upset with me for writing this. As I've said in the past, when I get an idea, I have to write it or else it will stick in my head. Explicit language in this imagine. I hope that you guys enjoy it. Anyways, without further ado, let's begin!

My fiancé of a month and a half is the singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes. I love how patient and understanding he's always been with me when it comes to doing anything sexual. I'm waiting for marriage before I have sex. I decided that I wanted to wait a while ago, before I even met Shawn, because I want to make sure that I'm with the rest guy first before I lose my virginity.

I know that Shawn has had one night stands and ex-girlfriends before, so he's had sex, but when I told him that I was waiting for marriage, he completely understood and said that it wouldn't be a problem at all. I had been so worried to tell him at first because I thought that he wouldn't want to be with me, but he actually said that he likes the fact that I'm waiting for marriage because it proves that I'm protecting myself.

I woke up in the morning to Shawn, the most handsome man in the world, asleep. Thoughts started to pop into my head. We don't know where his past sexual partners have been. It's not like he sat down with them before they had sex and asked them about their sexual history, but he told me that he's always used protection. What if one of his past sexual partners had a sexually transmitted infection and gave it to him? Anxiety filled my stomach as I thought about the fact that I should ask him to get tested since we're obviously going to be sexually active when we're married. But what if he gets offended by me asking this and leaves me? Oh my gosh I feel so fucking anxious right now. I watched as Shawn's eyes fluttered open, and he must have been able to tell that something was wrong because he smiled but then frowned and pulled me closer to him.

"Good morning darling. Are you okay?" He said and asked.

"Um, yeah, I just um, there's just something on my mind." I said. He nodded.

"Well what is it? Maybe I can help you out." He said. I smiled a little.

"I just need to get my thoughts together. I'll tell you when I'm ready to." I said. He nodded and kissed my forehead.

"Okay hun. Are you hungry? Do you want to come downstairs and we can make breakfast together?" He asked.

"Um, I'll be down in a minute. I just need to be alone with my thoughts and gather them before I come downstairs." I said. He nodded.

"Honey you're not breaking up with me, are you?" He asked. My eyes went wide.

"No, oh my gosh no. I could never break up with you Shawn. It's just... something. I'll tell you when I'm ready to, I promise." I said. He nodded.

"Okay. I'll be downstairs. Come down when you're ready to, okay darling? And when you're ready to tell me what's on your mind, just let me know, okay?" He asked. I nodded.

"Okay." I said. He kissed my forehead and the spot that he kissed was left feeling tingly even after his lips were no longer there. Shawn got out of bed and went downstairs. I rolled over so I was laying on my back, staring up at the ceiling. Would I be doing the right thing by asking him to get tested? Wait, of course I would be, I need to be aware of these things if - well, when - him and I are going to be intimate. I finally got up and went downstairs. Shawn was sitting on the couch watching tv, and he smiled at me when he saw me.

"Hey honey." He said. I sat down next to him.

"Hi. Um, I'm ready to talk about the thing that's on my mind, but could I have a good morning kiss first please?" I asked, wanting to kiss him one last time and savor it just in case he does end things.