Shawn Mendes Imagines Part 3 {COMPLETED}

174. Dinner & The Fear

I've been married to the singer and songwriter Shawn Mendes for a little over a month, and I'm so happy. I love Shawn so much, he's quite literally my best friend in this whole wide world. He knows me better than anyone does, and I know him better than anyone does. He's told me things that he's never told anyone before, and I've told him things that I've never told anyone before. I trust him more than anything and he's my number one person.

"What are you smiling about beautiful girl?" Shawn asked, snapping me out of my thoughts, as I put on a halter neck cutout front design playsuit (A/n: Dress is above!!). He wrapped his arms around me from behind and I rested my back against his chest.

"I'm just thinking about the fact that you're my best friend and that you know me better than anyone else does and stuff like that." I said. Shawn smiled at me in the bathroom mirror and then kissed the side of my head.

"Well darling, you're my best friend as well and you also know me better than anyone else does." Shawn said. I smiled at him. He was wearing a dark blue button down shirt and black dress pants.

"You look so handsome Shawny." I said as I turned around in his arms.

"Well you look so beautiful Y/n." Shawn said and I blushed and turned back around.

"Thank you, but I haven't even put on makeup or done my hair yet." I said with a giggle as I grabbed my mascara.

"You don't need any makeup or for your hair to be styled a certain way for you to look beautiful. You're the most beautiful girl, the most beautiful being ever my love." Shawn said. I blushed and smiled.

"Thank you honey." I said as I put on my makeup.

"You're welcome darling. Do you want me to leave the bathroom while you get ready?" Shawn asked. I shrugged.

"That's up to you babe." I said. Shawn nodded and then moved so he was no longer behind me but now sitting on the sink in front of me. I could feel his eyes on me as I finished doing my hair and makeup. Once I was done, I stood in between his legs. He smiled at me.

"Give me a kiss darling." Shawn requested. I put my lips on his and I felt my heart race as if I had just run a marathon, I felt butterflies erupt and fly around in my tummy, and I felt sparks shoot through me like fireworks. We soon pulled away and smiled at each other, out of breath from our loving and passionate kiss.

"Let's get going or else we'll be late." I said. Shawn nodded and got off the counter. I got my purse and we held hands as we walked down the stairs and out of the house. As our skin touched, I felt electricity spark through me yet I felt safe and warm at the same time. Shawn went ahead of me and opened the car door for me.

"Here you go my lady." Shawn said. I giggled as I got into his jeep, JBone.

"Thank you good sir." I said and he chuckled before shutting the door. He then got in on his side of the car and backed out of the driveway. Once he had backed out and was on the road, he reached his hand out for mine and I held my hand in his lap, just like we always do.

"I like to hold your hand." Shawn said. I looked at his handsome side profile.

"Yeah?" I asked. He nodded.

"Yeah. It's like, when I hold your hand, I feel electricity spark through me, but I feel safe and warm all at the same time. You give me insane feelings darling." Shawn said. I smiled.

"I get those same feelings too honey." I said. Shawn smiled at me for a moment before looking back at the road.

"I love being married to you." Shawn said.

"Good because I love being married to you too." I said.

"I feel like, so, before we got married, it was like I thought I couldn't possibly love you anymore than I already did, but now that we're married, wow babe. I feel like I've fallen even harder for you." Shawn said and my smile widened.

"Oh honey." I said.

"Well it's true!" He said with a chuckle.

"I know. It just makes me feel really special and I feel the same way about you baby." I said.

"Really?" He asked.

"Yup." I said. He brought his hand to his lips and kissed it. I smiled.

"We're here." Shawn said after we drove for a bit longer. We went inside and were seated towards the back so we could have more privacy.

"I miss our wedding day." I said as we waited for our food and drinks. Shawn reached his hands out for mine and took them in his. He played with my wedding ring.

"I miss it too, but I think that we've been having fun since then." Shawn said and I nodded.

"Yeah. I love you Mr. Mendes." I said. His smile widened.

"I love you too Mrs. Mendes." Shawn said. Soon, our food and drinks came and after we ate, we went home.

"Cuddles?" I asked when we walked in the door.

"Of course darling. Do you need help taking this off?" Shawn asked, pointing to my outfit and I nodded.

"Yes please." I said. We went upstairs and he helped me take it off and he helped me to get my makeup off too. We got changed into more comfortable clothes and went downstairs to watch tv. I cuddled up to him and he wrapped his arm around me.

A thought then popped into my head. What if he ever stops loving me? What if he ever leaves me? What if he ever realizes that I'm not this beautiful girl that he thinks I am? Shawn then gently squeezed my shoulder, and I realized that I had cuddled into him more. I looked up at him.

"Are you okay baby?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. I just like cuddling with you." I said. It's not like it was a lie. Shawn shook his head.

"I know that you like cuddling me but I feel like there's something going on. What were you just thinking about darling?" Shawn asked. I sighed and leaned forward to pause what we were watching.

"Shawn, what if someday you stop loving me? What if someday you leave me? What if you realize that I'm not this beautiful and breathtaking girl that you say that I am? What if -" I started but Shawn cut me off with a kiss.

"Breathe honey. You're having The Fear. I'm never going to stop loving you, and I will never leave you, and you truly are beautiful and breathtaking. It's okay honey, I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere." Shawn said. I nodded. The Fear is what we call my biggest fear - it's what I just told Shawn.

"But Shawn what if you do stop loving me and leave? It happened to my parents." I asked and said.

"But we're not your parents. I could never stop loving you honey." Shawn said, but I didn't feel fully reassured. I took Shawn's hands in mine and squeezed them gently as I began to cry.

"Promise me that Shawn. Promise me that you won't stop loving me and that you won't leave me." I said.

"I promise you that I won't stop loving you and that I won't leave you." Shawn said. I nodded and then cuddled up to him as he rubbed my back.

"I'm sorry that I'm such a burden." I said.

"Hey, stop that. You are in no way, shape, or form, a burden." Shawn said. I slowly stopped crying and then looked up at him.

"We're going to have kids together, right?" I asked. Shawn smiled and nodded.

"Yup. And we're going to have grandkids together too." Shawn said and I smiled and then yawned.

"I'm tired." I said.

"Let's go to bed honey. Come here." Shawn said as he suddenly picked me up. I squealed, causing him to laugh.

"Shawn!" I said.

"Oh hush, you know that you love it when I carry you places." He said and I giggled.

"That's true." I said. He then laid me on the bed and we cuddled up to each other when he got in on his side of the bed.

"Good night my precious Mrs. Mendes. I love you." He said.

"Good night my precious Mr. Mendes. I love you too." I said, and with that we drifted off to sleep. I love Shawn so much.