Shawn Mendes Imagines Part 3 {COMPLETED}

53. Tattoo

I sat on the couch in the living room of the house that I share my boyfriend of three years, Shawn Mendes. Shawn took me to get my first tattoo, a dragonfly on my wrist, and he also took me to get my second tattoo, my friend's initials, but both of those tattoos happened when we first started dating. There's one tattoo idea that I've been thinking about for a while now - it's been on my mind since before I even met him, but for some reason I've never told him. Shawn soon arrived at home and I got up and gave him a hug and a kiss.

"Hi baby girl. I missed you today." Shawn said.

"I missed you too baby. How were your meetings?" I asked. Shawn sat down and sighed.

"Long but good. What did you do today?" Shawn asked.

"Sat here and missed you and waited for you to come back. No I'm just kidding, um, I read a lot." I said. Shawn chuckled before turning serious.

"Why does something seem off with you baby?" He asked. I sighed.

"Well there's this idea that I've had for a while, but I've never told you about it." I said. Shawn turned more towards me.

"What is it babe? You know that you can tell me anything, so don't be nervous." Shawn asked and said.

"I want another tattoo." I said. Shawn smiled.

"That's great! Livia could do it. What would you want?" Shawn asked. I held his hands in mine and squeezed.

"You know that I have anxiety, and that In My Blood is my favorite song of yours. My favorite lyrics from it are 'Sometimes I feel like giving up / but I just can't / it isn't in my blood.' and I really would like that as a tattoo on my arm." I said. Shawn nodded.

"Okay. That's great baby." Shawn said.

"There's one more thing." I said.

"What is it?" Shawn asked.

"I would like the lyrics to be written in your handwriting." I said. This was the part that I was nervous about. Shawn's eyes widened and he thought for a moment.

"You want it in my handwriting?" Shawn asked. I nodded.

"Yeah. The lyrics are already special, and I feel like if it's in your handwriting it would be even more special. Would you be okay with doing that?" I asked. Shawn thought for a moment before getting up and walking out of the room. What just happened? He then came back in with a piece of paper and a pencil and wrote down the lyrics and handed them to me.

"Here you go babe." Shawn said with a smile. I smiled at him and kissed his cheek.

"Thank you so much for this baby. I'm going to have your handwriting on me forever." I said with a smile, and Shawn smiled back. Soon, he took me to see his tattoo artists, Livia Tsang, and she tattooed it on my arm in the area that's kind of close to my armpit.

"Do you like it Y/n?" Livia asked. I smiled and nodded as I looked at it.

"Yes, I love it. Do you like it Shawn?" I asked. He nodded.

"I love it babe. I'm so glad that you wanted my handwriting and my lyrics on you." Shawn said. I nodded and we soon went up to pay. Before I could even take my credit card out, Shawn had already put the money down on the counter. I sighed.

"Shawnnnn. Would you please let me pay for once?" I asked. Both Shawn and Livia laughed.

"Nope. Babe, you just got my lyrics written in my handwriting tattooed on you. That means so much to me, so let me pay for it." Shawn said. I sighed but nodded. Livia told me how to take care of the tattoo and Shawn and I went home. I kept looking at it and smiling. I had never told Shawn's fans about my anxiety.

"Shawn?" I asked.

"Yes my love?" He asked.

"Would it be okay if I told your fans about my anxiety?" I asked. Shawn smiled.

"If you want to." Shawn said. I had Shawn take a picture of the tattoo and send it to me. I then posted it on Instagram.

"When I was young, I was diagnosed with anxiety. It's something that I've dealt with but luckily therapy and family and friends have helped. When I first heard @shawnmendes s song In My Blood, it was over a year before I met him, and I instantly fell in love with the song. I had never related to a song more than I had to that song, and there have been so many times that I've cried to it. In My Blood has helped me through some dark times. The other day Shawn came home from meetings and I asked him to write my favorite lyrics from the song: 'Sometimes I feel like giving up / but I just can't / it isn't in my blood.' and I got it tattooed on me today. I'm so grateful for my support system, for In My Blood, and especially for Shawn. If you struggle with anxiety, don't be afraid to talk to someone. I have so many loved ones that help me and I'm so thankful for that. Also, a major thank you to Shawn for taking me to get this tattoo and for always being there for me. I love you so much." I wrote. Shawn commented on it "I'll always be here for you babe. I love you."

"Babe so many people are commenting good things on your post. I'm so proud of you for talking about your anxiety with my fans. I love you honey." Shawn said as he pulled me into his lap. I smiled at him.

"Thank you baby boy. I love you too." I said. I'm so glad that I talked about my anxiety and I'm so glad that I got the tattoo.