hard to love

chapter 1

my name is Taylor Nicole Trager im fifteen and live in Charming, California. i have long curly black hair with bright blues eyes, my skin stays tan. my dad is Alexander 'Tig' Trager and is a member of Sons of Anarchy Redwood origional also known as SAMCRO. hes the sgt. at arms to be exact. my mom died when i was five, gemma teller-morrow bhas been my mother figure ever since. my best friends are jax teller and opie winston, they are a year older than me. Lyla Andrews was my other best friend, we were the same age, have been neighbors since we were born, our moms were best friends too.

lylas dad split when we were six so her mom helped my dad and my dad helped hers, we grew up like a blended family except our parents werent together. 

Lyla and I just finished our school year and this summer was going to be amazing. we were both going to turn sixteen and had so much stuff planned. right now im on the back of my dads bike on the way to TM. ive been working there for a few years in the shop and office to pay for my photography stuff and now i was saving to buy a truck. we pulled up, dad back his bike into the row with the others he got off then helped me off

"thank you for the ride daddy." i said taking my helmet off 

"no problem baby girl. keep your helmet if im not here catch a ride back home with opie or jax. stick by them or gem if i have to leave. let me or gem know if you end up leaving this lot." he said kissing my cheek 

"yes sir. always sir. please be careful today. i need you back in one piece old man." i said kissing his check then grabbing my camera bag. "ill show you old man young lady." he said tickling me "dad i gotta go stop it." i said slapping his hands. we both laughed as we walked away from each other. 

opie and jax were in the shop working on a car. i went to my locker and put work my work smock on then went into the office to lock my camera bag in the file cabinet so no one touched it. 

"good morning momma gemma." i said as i walked in. 

"hey baby good morning."

"you need me in here or the shop today?" i asked her

"baby i think jax wants you out there they got alot to get done today."

"that means i got the grunt work oil changes, tire change, alignments and airing them up. aint that what the prospect is for? i hate when lowell or dog isnt working they actually let me work on the damn cars." i said annoyed. 

"i know baby. you know the guys like to get their hands dirty." 

"yeah yeah. please let me know where youre going for lunch ill see if i want anything." i asked her.

i walked into the shop and went to the desk to see what all i had to get done today. as long as i got my jobs done right with no problems gemma and clay still paid me for a full day of work. i had ten oil changes, a couple alignments, and tire rotations. i got a piece of paper out to make my to do list. i like to get the cars with more than one thing to do done first so i had the easier jobs at the end of the day. i went to get everything together before i pulled the car in. once i got the car pulled in my bay i put my head phones in. when i worked with opie i always listened to music. we havent been that close the past year.
 

we lost our virginities to each other when i was fourteen and he was fifteen, i was almost fifteen so its not that bad. then a couple weeks after that jax, opie and i got drunk on the roof during a Friday night samcro party. that night opie told me he loved me, i told him i loved him too and we had sex again. but after that he didnt treat me the same, he pushed me away and a couple months later he started dating donna williams.