Don't Hug Me I'm Scared {Billie Eilish}

{12} ✔️

Dahlia's POV
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When the final bell of the day rung, I was out of my seat and out of the door before literally anyone else. I was excited to go shopping with Billie and eager to get to the bottom of why she'd been so distant today. Also, I love shopping. I don't go to the mall that often, usually opting to shop in the thrift stores, but when I do go to the mall it's always fun. The place is humongous and there are all kinds of stores in it. It's like fucking Disney world to me.

I practically ran to her car, almost expecting her to try to escape before I could get there, but she was leaning against the side of it waiting for me.

"You told your brother you're riding with me, right?"

I'm glad she reminded me because I completely forgot. It's fine though, he and Cora have practice today anyway.

"I'll text him."

She nodded and got into the car, me following suit. I texted him before putting my seatbelt on and smiling at the side of Billie's face. "Can we go to the mall?"

"Sure."

"Great. So what's the problem?"

"Problem?" She asked quickly. "There's no problem."

"Billie, we've hardly talked today and that's really fucking weird, considering we've talked almost constantly every single day for...Since I met you. Are you mad at me? Be honest?"

"I'm not mad at you I've just been...dealing with something. I promise." She muttered before turning the radio up a little, clearly trying to signal for me to shut up. I narrowed my eyes before turning the volume down again. She shot me an unamused look before looking back at the road.

"Tell me about it. Maybe I can help."

"No thanks, I don't think you can. It isn't a big deal, It's personal and I'm dealing with it and it's fine." There was a stubborn edge in her voice that made me roll my eyes.

"I hardly know anything about you, you know? We've been talking a lot, but I feel like I don't know you." I sighed.

"Because you don't."

"Change that," I demanded. "How's your relationship with Finneas? What are your mom and dad like?" She'd questioned me about my family a while back and now it was my turn.

"Finneas is a dweeb and my parents are parents."

I pouted and crossed my arms over my chest. "Details, maybe?"

"There are no fucking details, Dahlia." She huffed. "Look, everything's fine and I'm sorry I've been ignoring you but it's not a big deal. It's not like we're supposed to talk to each other all the time."

I bit the inside of my cheek as I turned to look out the window. "Yeah, you're right. Sorry, I'm dragging you to the mall. You can take me home if you want."

"No...We do need to get your sister a present."

I nodded a little. "K, but after this, I promise we don't have to talk."

She sighed as I continued to glare out the window. I don't know what crawled up her ass, but I don't think I care to find out any more. We'll just go in, find something for Cora as quick as possible, and then she can take me home and I can forget about this entire thing.

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"We can split up. I'll be upstairs." I mumbled, walking off before she could even reply. I have a hundred bucks on me right now and that should be enough to get Cora some stuff from bath and body works, her absolute favorite store. She collects perfume and I know of a few new ones that she doesn't have yet. If anyone gets the same gift as me we're gonna fight.

I went into bath and body works and got out of there only fifteen minutes later, spending seventy of my dollars even with all the sales they had going on. She better fucking love me for this.

I spent about an hour walking around upstairs and going into all my favorite stores. Spencer's, hot topic, GameStop, Claire's and the toy store...I try not to let anyone know how much I love the last two.

I figured Billie would text me when she finished shopping, but after almost two hours, I sighed and decided I'd just go and find her. I wondered momentarily if she'd left me here, stranded in the mall with no way to get home.

I doubt she'd ever do that to me, but with the way she'd treated me the last two days...

I've gotta stop being so fucking dramatic. Maybe I really am being a pain in the ass. She's right. We're not always gonna talk all the time and I shouldn't be so upset by that, but it's weird. She went from treating me like her fucking wifey to treating me like some random ass girl she barely knows. And what's worse is the fact that I don't have any idea why.

I shook my head as I walked around aimlessly trying to find her in this humongous mall rather than texting her. Just my luck, after a few minutes I saw her blue hair and baggy clothes leaving one of the newer clothing stores.

I jogged to catch up with her as she started walking in the other direction.

"Find everything?" She asked once she noticed me. I nodded. "Cool." She muttered.

We walked out of the mall and all the way back to her Jeep silently. Once we were both buckled in, she began driving me home.

I tapped my thighs to the beat of each song that came on as I stared out the window. I could feel her gaze on me every now and then, but I ignored it.

When we got to my house, I grabbed all my stuff and muttered a quiet 'bye' to her before walking toward my door. To my surprise, I heard her door opening and closing only a few seconds later and then she was walking toward me.

"I'm sorry." She practically whispered. She stepped forward to give me a kiss on the cheek before backing away from me again. "I'll see you tomorrow."

I nodded silently before opening the door and sneaking up to my room, thankful I was able to avoid Cora because I'm ass at keeping secrets when it comes to presents.

I quickly wrapped all her stuff and hid it in my closet before plopping down in my bed and turning Netflix on. I figured I'd start binge-watching a new show to get my mind off of everything that's happened with Billie today.