Don't Hug Me I'm Scared {Billie Eilish}

{24}✔️

Dahlia's POV
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I sighed as I turned off my read receipts and then opened up Billie's texts.

Bilboa:
Hey, beautiful, you doing okay? 8:53 am

I know I can't be at school with you and that sucks but I hope your day doesn't suck as much as you think it will. Maybe people are already over it? 🖤9:16 am

Dude, I know you're probably really busy right now and probably hella overwhelmed but I can't stop thinking about you. I feel like I'm as nervous as you. 10:14 am

Okay, I'm definitely not as nervous as you but I'm still really nervous. 10:15 am

Bro I wish you weren't in school ;( Finneas keeps trying to make me eat vegetables and I have no one to rant to about it. 11:13 am

Fucking broccoli of all vegetables. Like come on dude. 11:15 am

Baby do you not have your phone on you? Why don't you have your phone on you you hoe?! 1:44 pm

Are people giving you shit? Lmk so I can pop up if I need to. 2:12 pm

ANSWER 👏🏻 MY 👏🏻 MOTHERFUCKING 👏🏻 TEXTS 👏🏻 BEFORE 👏🏻 I 👏🏻 BEAT 👏🏻 FINNEAS' 👏🏻 ASS 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 3:39 pm

You're out of school now bro what the fuck. 4:11 pm

After reading the texts, I sighed again and threw my phone down before lying down and putting a pillow over my head. I feel like such a bitch for not replying to her because I know she must be worried about me and she just wants to make sure I'm okay, but I can't talk to her right now. I have no idea what to say.

She'd be able to tell that somethings up even through text messages, so I can't talk to her. I don't know what to do about Kai, I don't know if there is anything that I can do about Kai, and if there isn't then that means I'm just stuck doing what she wants me to do, and what she wants me to do is stop talking to Billie. I don't want to do that. It'd hurt Billie and it'd make me miserable.

But I can't have Kai telling everyone about what happened with my mom. Nobody knows about that besides my family and I, and now Billie. She knows a little. Caden and Cadence know a little too, but they don't know everything and I don't want them to. I just want to move on from it, let the past be in the past. I don't want Kai to tell strangers about what happened to me.

Plus, if I tell Billie about what happened with Kai today, there's no doubt in my mind that she'd find her and beat her ass again. I can't have that. Billie could get into serious trouble—more trouble than she's already in. She's already suspended because of me. I don't need her getting arrested because of me too.

Kai wants me to screw her whenever she wants and I can't fucking do that either. I don't want anything to do with her anymore. I regret the fact that I ever laid my hands on her, I regret the fact that I ever even laid my eyes on her. Every time she so much as looks at me I feel sick to my stomach. I hate the fact that I have to be in the same building as her.