Saving Us *Mate Astray*

Chapter 38 Part 2

Elektra's POV

The next time I become aware of the world around me, there is no longer any sunlight making its way through the gaps in the curtains and there is little to no sound outside, as if everyone has taken to the warmth of their own homes.

It must be nightfall

I lift my eyes from the documents sitting in front of me and make my way around the desk and to the window. The sky is clear of clouds and only stars fill the space as far as the eye can see, a peace settling itself in the world around us. The cottages surrounding the pack house are lit and filled with the small murmur of voices, indicating that shifters had returned home from the day's work.

Turning my attention back to the office that has been my home for the past two days, I am overwhelmed by the mess and chaos that has taken over the place. I had spent the last few hours working on every detail of my journey and yet still felt hollow, as if something was missing.

Ignoring the sudden loneliness that overwhelmed me, I decide that it is time for a shower and dinner. Making my way to the en-suite bathroom, I take my time removing my clothes and getting the water to the temperature I like. It isn't long before I jump in and the day's stress evaporates from my body, making me feel significantly move relaxed than I have in the last couple of days.

Half an hour later I am dried and dressed in a pair of shorts and a white tank top, feeling lighter than I have in a long time.

We smell better too

I roll my eyes at the unnecessary comment, as truthful as it may be.

Leaving the room for the first time in a while and smelling something that is not old, dusty books and maps made my mood better in a matter of seconds. Any remains of stress were erased as I walked along the corridor, being greeted by pack members who were making their way to their rooms. It brought a sense of normality to the air that had been missing since the fight.

Descending the stairs to the ground floor where the kitchen is located, I suddenly pick up a scent that brings the beast to the forefront of my mind and has my heart racing.

Mate

I slow down until I make a complete stop just outside the kitchen door where I am certain I can hear my mate's voice. It seems that she is talking to someone else but I cannot pinpoint if they are male or female.

Go to mate

The desperation in her voice reflected my own but something stopped me from going in. I was frightened of Sarah's reaction, and scared that she had had enough of me.

Go to her, Elektra

If only it was that simple Atesh

It only seems complicated because you are making it so

The sound of laughter breaks my internal turmoil. It seems that Sarah is having a great time in there and even though I am glad that she is well enough to be able to laugh, I am also sad that it isn't me making her smile.

Getting frustrated at my own indecisiveness and childishness, I grab the knob on the door, twist and make my way into the kitchen where I am met by the sight of my mate and Simon, sitting on the couch, laughing like old friends, one of his arms laying behind Sarah on the sofa, a pathetic attempt at embracing her and probably one of the cheesiest and oldest tricks in the book.

There are so many emotions running through me that it is difficult to know which one to address first. I want to be angry but that would be pointless and it is not like they were doing anything wrong; I want to feel cheated that she seems completely fine spending time with him yet had made no effort to see me but I know that I pushed her away and did everything in my power to isolate myself from others; I want to cry but it is not like I have lost her forever, she is right there, she is alive and healthy...