rainbow boy - minsung

sobbing

Her body was shaking immensely , her face burned, and her pillows flooded tears. Immediately I rushed over to her and lifted her into my arms, holding her tight.  The poor shaking girl just cried softly. "What the hell happen?! Are you ok?" I asked quickly. she just leaned against me and stuttered to speak. "It's all my fault, jisung..."

"it's all my fault..."
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"I-im confused. What's your fault, love?" I asked holding her softly in my arms. She moved back against her pillows again and held her favorite stuffed shark in her arms. she always used that to calm her down.

"Just everything." She cried. I could tell she had calmed a bit after our hug but she was still shaken. "That doesn't make any sense. Is something going on?" It was so confusing. How could I enter this house and see a happy girl sitting at the table and then after an hour or so with Chan she's just

broken.

"I can't tell you jisung... I just can't. You'd hate me-"

"That's a lie!" I grabbed her quickly and held her close to my chest. I could feel her shaking and it made my nervous heart beat faster. I rubbed her back softly and hushed her down. "You're all I have left right now ji... I don't wanna risk it..."

How could I be all she had. She had my friends and our father and her hobbies and ... "emma."
She shot right up at me and sobbed her words.
"Chan said something about her needing me recently and that she was hurt-"

"I was trying to talk to her and I guess I said something she took wrong and I made her so upset and I hurt her and just...i told you it was all my fault." She sobbed back into my shoulder, taking both of us back down onto her bed.

"I bet it was just a misunderstanding, love. You'll be able to sort this out. I promise." But before you knew it, she was sound asleep in my arms. Her head was against my chest and arms pulled my one in close. She deserved a good rest. She seemed so anxious.

But what am I gonna tell Chan... or do I even tell him anything. Of course I only know one side of the story at the moment so I'm not jumping to any conclusions but. I might as well just say nothing.

It was a bit of time til minho came over so I took advantage of the situation and just laid there with my sister. I felt her shift closer to me and I wrapped around her tight.

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The door bell repeatedly ringing made for a great alarm. Kat was still asleep but luckily she rolled off my arm so i could answer. I stood to stretch and pulled my sleeves down to sweater paws with a pout on my face as I was tired and a mess. Giving my sister a soft forehead kiss I left the room. "Who is it..." I yawned from up stairs but my dumb ass forgot that Minho was coming... oh shit.

My mind finally woke up and answered the door. Minho looked a bit annoyed as his face was serious and eyebrows were raised high.  "Oh hey cutie." He teased to me with a smirk. "You uh. You look beat."

I blushed as I fixed my hair, but really the "fixed my hair" part was to hide myself from the strange heat on my face so he wouldn't notice. "Just- uGh"

He seemed happy with the torture. And to make up for being late to answer I let him continue. "What was it you wanted to talk about?" Minho asked to start the conversation.

But now I realized that if i talked about possibly being gay, he might think I'm actually gay. And I'm not. I have to be there for Emma. But what'll I tell Minho...

"Oh uh... just how schools going for you. I know winter break is coming up, I wanted to know if you'd be interested in doing somethings?" I asked to cover it up.

"Oh." He seemed relieved to be honest. "I thought something bad was going on, you scared me, ji." He giggles in reply. "Yea of course Id be down to hang."

His tone was sweet and soft now , like a cheesecake. can't remember the last time I had cheesecake, or why I'm even thinking about it at the moment. but it just was. "Great! But uh... what did you wanna do now?" I asked.

"I mean I know you don't really like watching movies and that you dont watch tv a lot. So why don't you choose, you picky kid." He smirked at me again. Classic Minho. The world will end when he doesn't smirk at me.

"Actually I do have something else to talk about... if you don't mind me asking something?" I hesitated. Cause now that I think about it, I did have a question to ask. Something I hadn't thought of before.

"Minho... how did you know you were bi? Or that you liked guys?" I asked nervously. It was just a curious question and had nothing special too it. I promise. I promised Chan id be there for emma. And have to keep away for hyunjin. This means nothing . I'm-

"I'm asking for... a friend. He's too scared to ask himself so I'm asking for him. How did you know?" I felt relieved there was an excuse there. At least now I didn't have to deal with handling all the pressure of him suspecting homosexual tendencies.

"I guarantee you're asking for, felix. He's whipped for changbin I can tell." Minho gave a little giggle. "But uh... it's actually kinda personal but ill tell you anyway."

"You see there was this guy... I met him a while ago but love was never really his thing. He has this soft combed over hair and the softest cheeks. And the best personality I could ask for. But he was straight. And I think that's why I wanted him. I wanted something I couldn't have which led me to realize that if I was that desperate for a single guy, maybe I'd be a little less for other guys. And I came to the conclusion I was bi since I still can find girls attractive and don't know if I'm totally gay yet." He explain.

Wow. That's ... I honestly felt bad for him. But I wonder who that person could be. Let's see. Combed hair. Soft face. Best personality. And straight.

Felix? I mean. If you think about it, he mentioned Felix's name when I asked about how he know he was gay and he knew all his details. He totally used to like Felix.

"Wow... thanks for telling me , Minho." I smiled lightly. "No problem" he replied with a sweet tone. We had another one of those moments where we just stared at each other smiling.

After that moment broke we just sat and talked about other stupid life things like our family and school and what to do over winter break.

"You know, my family has this cabin up in the woods we rent every break at a camp group. You should tag along this year. " Minho has offered.

It sounded like fun but. "Are you sure?" I asked for reassurance.

"I mean you've been going to every other vacation since we were little, why wouldn't you?"

That just made me smile. Just a simple one. "Well then it sounds great!" I shouted.

"I should get going, it's late and you have a 'date' tomorrow" Minho smirked... again. "jus-shut up-" I screamed into a pillow all red and embarrassed.

"-get out, bi boy"