rainbow boy - minsung

cup of tea

in the beginning it was the two of them in the rain with each other. but by the end, the two had of them were in love in someway. not with each other. but with broken hearts. and maybe, just maybe, things could start to heal.

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and so i did start to heal. although in school it was a difficult scene to present myself in , the week was fast. friday came fast and although i was enjoying spending the weekend alone, i didn't want to tonight. i mean it was friday, as mentioned before.

but i couldn't call anyone or go to anyone's place. felix had explained 'oh i'm busy tonight...' and binnie had told me he had practice for something and everyone else had excuses who i asked.

i sat on my bed and decided to ring emma. but it went straight to her voicemail. i tried again only to get the same response. must be on silent... but she never has her phone on silent?

i texted her instead although the reply was rather strange..? cause there was none. there was typing for a second but the phone suddenly just stopped and i never got a reply. guess emma won't talk to me either.

you know... emma isn't stupid. and i must have thought she was when she was asking me to stop fake dating her and make it a breakup. i must have sounded so selfish at that point... no wonder she had the right to be mad at me. but let me tell you that no body will have a stronger hate for me than i do for myself at this moment.

i couldn't help but think of solutions that would possibly better everyone. run away. drop out. live with my mom. so many ideas of ways to deal with this rather than face the issue at hand.

but i certainly couldn't go to the one place where i felt a hundred percent safe. at least that's what i thought....

i heard a car door slam outside of my house and eagerly approached my window to peak and see who had come to visit me. only to figure out that it wasn't for me at all, but it was someone i knew.

felix and binnie had pulled up at minho's house next door. not sure why i'm surprised as friday nights were always at minhos.

it had also been a week since the incident. a week since my problems started. a week since hell. although rumor has it minho and emma have made ammends.... but why not me?

there was light smoke coming from the back yard fire pit although the sun hadn't set yet and wasn't really close either. it was only 4pm and around this time of year the sun had a later setting time in korea.

"i wish i had someone to see tonight...." i whispered to myself. and i was hoping that maybe it would work and minho would magically text me over but it didn't.

two hours past, the sun had begun to set but daylight was still noticeable. my phone buzzed beside me, waking me from a little nap i had taken to ignore my thoughts and the outside world.

i was hesitant to answer and ignored it... but it rang again. and i checked who it was but i was honestly shocked at what name came up.

it was ms.lee.... minhos mother. i'm not sure if she was going to inform me of my mistakes or finish off things between minho and i or say something for him but ... it was the opposite.

"hello?" i shyly spoke as i answered the phone before me, placing it on speaker on the pillow beside where i was laying.

"hello, jisung." minhos mother spoke. she was soft in her tone as a mother would be talking to a young boy like myself. "how are you, dear?"

"oh. i'm... alright, i guess. how about you...? everything ok? " i responded. i was completely unaware if she knew what had happened or not.

"i'm doing ok, thank you. say why don't you come over for a bit. you and me and a cup of tea?" she offered. and i was surprised to be honest. i wasn't expecting an invite from her but the tone she gave it in made me feel like it was ok.

"oh... are you sure ?" i asked to confirm. ms. lee reassured me and told me to come when i was ready. and so i did for some reason.

i arrived around seven at night, dusk painting the sky purple and orange . no happy little clouds this time though. i knocked on the door, but a low expression and attitude remained in my body.

"welcome, jisung dear... why don't you come in? i made you a nice cup of tea." she gave me a warm hug and led me to the kitchen table.

the tea was good, too. simple with lots of honey , just how i liked it. "thank you..." i whispered quickly. and i may be in a state of depression but i wasn't gonna let that ruin my manners. she nodded as a reply.

"have you been alright, dear? i saw you all alone up there. plus, minho hasn't been himself and neither have you. he won't tell me anything besides that he came out to me. but i would never judge him for that...." she took my hand. "or you."

i looked at her softly with a single tear welling in my eye. "you know about us... don't you..." she nodded cautiously, hoping that wouldn't frighten me. "it's alright. i just made a big mistake."

"you want me to help you out?" she asked. and i agreed. i trusted ms.lee as a second mother figure to treat me gently and so she did.

she heard the whole story and comforted my cries and made sure my belly was full of warm tea to sooth my aching nerves. but what she carried on to explain had me a bit confused.

"well. he's still got something for you ... you know that right? why don't you head out back?" but as she spoke the back door opened up. felix came up to me.

"hey jisung! why aren't you out back? we're about to leave but... come say hi!" felix took my hand and led me out back. oh god oh god where was this going... no lix did you forget?! you can't just...

"hey, jisung came guys. but i have to head out. nice seeing you, ji." felix softly smiled before leaving. and back was painted the most wrong picture perfect scene.

chris , minho, hyunjin, and emma.... all at once. i couldn't help but notice how emma and hyunjin were acting first though.

emma was asleep in hyunjin's lap, sitting on his legs and wrapped up tightly around his neck, face in the crook of his shoulder. hyunjin's head rested silently on top of hers with small pecks here and there. but when i was entered to the scene his hawk eyed gaze was sharp and on me.

chris just stood but then slowly sat back down and looked away... and minho. minho had a noticeable guilt in his eyes and just looked at me softly.

"i think we're gonna head out... before it's too late." chris spoke, hyunjin following and carrying emma in his arms like a bride. they exit the scene.

and now it's just us.