rainbow boy - minsung

flower crown

"but anyways thanks for letting me stay for dinner. the sun is setting and my momma is gonna be here soon and we're gonna head home. i'll definitely think about telling changbin how i feel and i'll get back to you." felix picked up his little white backpack and marched over to me and give me a big hug til i almost popped.

"bye jisung!" he called before walking out the door. i waved back and gave a proud and happy smile. i hope things go well for the fragile boy. he deserves so much love.

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school arrived fast the next day and i arrived to lunch with emma and minho that day. we both walked through the doors at the bell and sat at our assigned spots. the seats weren't actually assigned but we had a routine at this point. i sat across from seungmin, minho, and felix as normal. 

"hey, lix! look." i said happily while taking out some left overs of our ramen in a thermos for my lunch that day. felix didn't reply. his head was down on the table between his arms. soft ginger locks ran through a little flower crown of white buds he was wearing that day but his brows were narrowed almost like puppy dog eyes or as if he was thinking about something that was upsetting him. 

"i - i like your flower crown. it's something new." felix panicked a bit and removed it from his head as if he forgot it was there. i sighed a bit. and i was confused as well. i looked around the table for any irregular behavior. hyunjin had returned today, was it him? i doubt that though. 

"everything ok lix..?" i whispered, laying my head on my arms against the table beside his so no one would hear us. we faced each other. "i told changbin today..." felix sighed with puffy eyes. "and talked to my momma last night." i almost shot up but that would be too obvious to everyone else. i stayed down and tried not to make a large reaction to signal someone else.

"how... how did it go..?" i hesitated to ask. 

"he said he doesn't like guys but, that's not why i'm upset... i could have seen that response coming from a mile away. i was upset over something else..." my face was enough to tell him to go on because i was confused at this point. if it wasn't changbin then what would it be? certainly not his mother, she adored her only son tremendously . 

felix sat up. he talked a bit louder as he was more open about this problem. "that flower crown... i was trying to dress new ways to express myself and - and there were these people yelling-" he began to tear up and cry a bit. a soft gentle cry like  a baby. 

i saw changbin peak over out of the corner of my peripheral vision.  he gave a stare of fear almost but kept silent and not so obvious. emma noticed as well . "aw lixie..." she stood and walked around to the other side of the table. she gave him a nice hug to calm him down . "whoever it is making fun of you is certainly gonna pay. i'll jump em', alright?" emma explained in attempt to lighten the mood. 

changbins one fist hit the table lightly, causing it to shake as he stood and walked away. his eyes making his mind look busy in thought as he paced out of the lunch room and down the hall. i guess i was the only one to notice. 

however emma had cheered up felix easily and he was giggling with smiles now. good. he was alright. "here. eat the rest of my- i mean, our. our ramen." i suggested to my aussie friend, pushing the warm metal tin thermos over in his direction. he happily thanked me and ate away. 

"where were you yesterday, hyunjin ? did you get my message?" seungmin asked worried and patiently . hyunjin peaked over to him but gave a groan as he turned a bit. "yea i got it. i just needed a break from school. "

"but we just had break..?" felix asked genuinely confused. 

"its. never mind. " hyunjins sharp eyed gaze met mine, sending shocks of anxiety like static down my back. "jisung. minho. how was your trip?" i opened my mouth to reply but minho shot out before me. 

"it was good. good. very good. nothing exciting. we made dinner and played with my cats and celebrated new years . my mom was certainly happy to have him over this year, probably more excited than i was heh." minho scratched the back of his neck at the thought of the happy memories. 

"what about you hyunjin? what did you do with the rest of the group while we were away?" minho asked curiously. he was into the conversation at this point, suspecting nothing wrong with the question. 

"it had its ups and downs. but i guess it was ok." he was all slouched over and tired. his hair was messy and hyunjin seemed to sit uncomfortably in the seat. 

"what are you gonna do for the dance? i bet there's a ton of juniors dying to ask you." felix pointed out . his freckles and smiles making the moment innocent when three of us had a heavy weight put on our chest . hyunjin, emma, and myself.

you could see emma and hyunjin meet in a guilty stare for a minute there. but she turned away to avoid any suspicious thoughts at the table. 

"i don't wanna go with any juniors..." hyunjin responded shyly. his gaze turned away from anyone to look at changbins empty seat in front of him. i wonder where he went actually? cause i mean he was a little mix of emotions just now and i- i don't know what's on his mind. 

but the bell rang and of course we would head to the rest of our normal schedules. i couldn't help but watch hyunjins face squint a bit with a sharp exhale as he stood and threw his backpack over his shoulder. was he in another fight? he wasn't even here yesterday! maybe he beat up the fools who messed with felix.

or maybe it was something else he was keeping tucked away.