rainbow boy - minsung

bad liar

"i think we're gonna head out... before it's too late." chris spoke, hyunjin following and carrying emma in his arms like a bride. they exit the scene.

and now it's just us.
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jisung and minho. minho and jisung. a king and a fool. a lover and a liar. so many duos, but one was always tragic.

i gave up... my mind broke. my body went numb and i started to fall over in tears. but he caught me... i don't know why he caught me...

our gaze met each other's. i wanted to look into his eyes but my eyes welled up way too much. it was all a blur and my movements were led like touch.

"jisung stop. get up." minho said pulling me to my feet, my tears just getting worse. "come on, jisung. talk. what do you need?" he added.

i took a minute to calm myself and breath, but i was still shaken. minho seemed to be so pissed at me... he didn't want me here did he. "i- i'm... i-" i kept sniffing and stuttering immensely to him.

"i'm so sorry!" i screamed out, echoing through the yard corner and scaring some nearby crows. it got quiet besides me broken down in front of minho, my legs wobbling so much i didn't know how much longer i could stand.

"i was so stupid and - and you... you didn't deserve it and i- i dont know what i was thinking. and i don't want you to h-hate me but i ... i just know you do and you always will and if you don't want to be friends that's fi-"

i was cut off. see the thing about apologies is they are either quick and sincere, as if nothing happened. or they are long and awkward. this one was a mix. short and awkward, unsure if it was sincere.

but it felt sincere . it felt nice. i remembered how it felt. i missed it. i really really missed it. i missed minho all these days. all the time i wasn't near him he was on my mind and i wondered if that was the way he felt too.

he had shut me up. the same way i shut him up on the roof. tears fell down my cheeks harder. he pulled me in deeper. and i felt my anxiety shut off almost instantly.

my heart was a tangled mess like headphones in your pocket. my chest was tingly and mind was confused... why was he doing this? there's no way i was that easy to take back.

he pulled his lips away from mine. but i chased them back for a minute. or two. almost three, actually.

minho's breathing was noticeably shuffled . was he crying? i backed up for a second, my finger brushing his tears. "minho i.... i don't understand..." i stuttered under my own tears.

"i missed you so much...." he whispered before pulling me into a tight hug, my arms holding im back of course. "i was gonna try to play it off but unlike you i-im ...just such a bad liar."

he really was . "i've known... it was hard to stay away from you... i-im sorry. but - you don't have to take me back-"

"but i want you back!" it was quiet after he yelled that.... i don't understand how he wanted me back. there's no way he did. he must have hit his head on something.

"n-no i... how?" i asked . our tears had stopped at this point and all was gentle. we took some time to calm down and minho took my hands.

"jisung i-.... i couldn't come to grips with hating you. i just love you too much and after talking to some people i think it's best for both of us that were at good terms. " minho locked his fingers with mine. "maybe even more?"

was he... "minho i still dont understand..." minho took a deep breath and closed his eyes , almost like it was to gain confidence.

"jisung. i love you. more than anything. and i forgive you for your mistakes despite how fucked up it was. and i .... want you to be my boyfriend?" minho was a bit anxious at the question that his shoulders tensed up and eyes looked to the ground.

i processed the question and lifted his chin ,
placing his lips back on mine. it lasted a moment just to let him know how much i loved him back. " of course, min.... of course."

we shared another moment of affection before looking up to the stars with no intention of counting them and then back to each other. guess time flew by so fast we didn't even pay attention to what was going on.

"why don't you stay the night? " minho offered with a small peck to my forehead. "just to celebrate and make things settled between us?"

i blushed a bit at the offer. now that we were official it made things a bit strange ... but also a bit curious to my mind. why the hell not.

"i would love to." i responded, going on my tip toes to reply with a similar kiss to his head as well.

"you're so gay, jisung. i don't get how the hell you hid it from me." i hit his shoulder in response, finding it offensive at first as he was saying i'm an obvious homosexual but then taking it as a compliment.

"let's get inside though. it's a bit cold." minho wrapped his arm around my waist and led me inside, my head leaning on his shoulder as we walked inside.

"head upstairs. i'm gonna say goodnight to my mom and get us a snack alright, love?" he called me a cute couple name for the first time... and i really liked it. i felt all warm and special in my stomach, like little moths kissed my chest.

i nodded and went upstairs. it was kind of late at this point but who cares, as long as i was with minho i could stay up all night.