rainbow boy - minsung

you, too

"i love you." minho said in the most sincerest and true tone i had heard. i was in awe. we hadn't said that we loved each other yet. not truly or sincere like this though. i had to keep faking this whole thing though so i turned away as if blushed up. i noticed the stocking stuffers on my bed.

"hey. lets play a game to kill some time."

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i couldn't say it back.  i just couldn't. but i did love him. i loved him so so much. more than anything or anyone. but i didn't right now. i couldn't right now. i had a girlfriend.

"oh. that sounds great. yea. do you mind if i run to the bathroom real quick though?" he asked me shyly as if nervous to leave.  i started to get worried. "oh yea. go right ahead. ill just set up . take your time."

"thanks.  " minho managed to choke out before rushing down the ladder and to the nearest bathroom. i thought i had done damage already but apparently i hadn't done enough. i set up the little challenge i was hoping to play with minho and waited for his return.

this wasn't selfish was it? i mean ... maybe i should just say it back. i know i had to fake it but... i didn't want to make him that broken. i didn't want to break him at all. i felt terrible.

minutes had passed at this point. i began to worry more and more. i just had to find him. down the ladder and through the hall i went to the bathroom door. i heard stutters from behind the other side. immediately i ran into the doorway and saw a sobbing boy on the floor.

"no no hey." i rushed up to him and knelt before him and took his hands away from his tear filled eyes. his face  was a cherry red. i felt so guilty... "minho listen to me. calm down, dear. its ok. i'm here. i'm here, min. look at me" i lifted his chin to my gaze. i always thought his eyes were gorgeous but with tears they were just sharp and broken like glass shards. crystal clear to his iris.

he took my hands and pulled me close. holding on to me tight with a shaken body. he was hurt or scared or just everything in one painful body. " its going to be ok. " i held him tight. we sat down comfortably til minho was settled. our foreheads rested upon each other and minho sat on my criss crossed legs.

"i'm sorry, jisung...i'm so sorry for all of this mess. " he stuttered into my shoulder. i turned my head to his neck and gave it a soft kiss. minho shifted  and relaxed at the touch. he melted into the touch and eased his sobbing. he slid into a slouch and released his final heavy breath.

"don't be sorry. it's all for you and it's all worth it. its.. its just." i lifted his face to mine and placed another soft kiss to his lips. meaning every part of this. i pulled away. it was time. "i love you, too. i - i truly do. please remember that a girlfriend is not the only person i'm allowed to love. i can love you too. " i kissed him again. his lips where a bit chapped from the heavy breathing of his sobs earlier on. "and so i do love you , lee minho."

"ji. you don't have to fake it. the tears weren't for your pity or for you to say it back i-"

"minho shut up. i mean what i said. just accept it . " we sat on the bathroom floor for a few more moments until we were all calmed down and full of giggles. "now. what was the game you wanted to play." he smiled.

we went back up to the loft where i unpacked my sweet chapstick flavors. "you have to randomly pick one and put it on and guess what it is, ok?" minho looked through all the tastes to get an idea of which ones might get confusing and which ones wouldn't. things like hershey's and reese's or twizzlers and jolly ranchers. "i have a better way." minho smiled a bit. "close your eyes so you don't see which one. you can guess first. "

"ok...?" i replied all confused. i mean maybe he thought it was cute to be the one to put the chapstick on me or maybe he wanted to pick a certain ones. a citrus taste met my lips and was easily decipherable as sprite. but minho tasted it too. he had applied the fizzy flavor to his lips and kissed it on for me to taste. i blushed a bit and smiled. the smile ruining the kiss a bit but i easily told him the flavor. "sprite."

"correct. your turn." he smirked after my eyes opened once again. "alright. close em'" i reminded him. after his gaze was shut i looked around the bed we sat on for a good one. i thought of how sweet minho was and chose a hershey's kiss. chocolate and vanilla were opposite classic flavors but hopefully he'd enjoy it. i applied it to my lips, it tastes like it was supposed to but it wasn't that accurate as a whole. "alright here you go." i stated moving closer.

we met our faces as one once again and i left the sweet taste of hersheys against his lips for him to guess. "is it the hershey bar?" he guessed. "nope. " i placed another sweet touch.

"try again." he tasted it once more. "reese's. final answer. i don't know, ji. was there another chocolate one?" i laughed a bit and kissed him again. his eyes opened. "it was kisses."

"haha very funny, love."

"no, minho it was literally a hershey kiss. look." i handed it over to him and he seemed embarrassed . "heh. literally." he realized.

suddenly minho had a look of shock on his face and immediately reacted at a sudden noise downstairs. he looked all panicked as if we got caught by the police. i realized it was his mother soon after. he shook a bit in my hands. "hey." i whispered.

minho sighed and looked at me. he took my hands softly but shaken.

"can you help me?"