rainbow boy - minsung

so simple

suddenly minho had a look of shock on his face and immediately reacted at a sudden noise downstairs. he looked all panicked as if we got caught by the police. i realized it was his mother soon after. he shook a bit in my hands. "hey." i whispered.

minho sighed and looked at me. he took my hands softly but shaken.

"can you help me?"

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minho looked downstairs and took a deep breath. we both still sat on his bed hand in hand.

"minho are you gonna..." he shrugged. luckily he wasn't crying. but that worried me as crying was a way of letting things out. i hoped minho wasn't keeping it all inside. i moved us further back to the back corner of the bed so his mother wouldn't see us.

"you don't have to, min. if you think it's time then i'll be here though." i smiled to him and he smiled back. minho was just too pretty sometimes. i could hear his mother downstairs unpacking some plastic bags and checking on tonights dinner. "you alright, boys?" she called up. we came down in reply. still in our nice clothes we stood by the counter as minhos mom prepared sides like carrots and potatoes.

"looks great. " i replied from behind the other side of the counter. "oh jisung, i picked up a special something for tonight." she opened a plastic bag to reveal a freshly made cheesecake and oh my god it looked amazing. "you really didn't have to. but thank you very much."

"minho you excited?" his mom asked. minho was in a daze for a minute there. "minho..?" she called out again. he snapped out of it.

"huh. oh. yea im excited. " he replied seeming rather tired.

"you alright, love?" the mother had asked her son. "you seem a bit lightheaded." she reached her hand to his forehead as if feeling for a temperature to sense a cold or fever. "your temperature seems all good though. has your panicking gotten any worse..?"

minho had anxiety ever since we were kids. i remember the one time during the talent show in fifth grade we were singing with some other friends and he got scared he would mess up at one part so just froze there. i held his hand however and he did it perfectly.

"i'm probably just tired. i'll probably just . play with the cats or something." he replied. he walked away after that. without telling his mother anything.

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dinner was perfect that night. ms.lee cooked the best meals ever and i was so thankful to be there for this years holiday. i had such a broken family myself that these two people felt like my family. they even let the cats sit at the table for more company.

i thanked minhos mother for the meal and helped clean up. i told minho i was gonna take a quick shower as he had taken his before dinner and i hadn't. i finished washing up and headed back upstairs in my pajamas. i threw my clothes on the bed and turned around to shut the curtains. it was late now. we ate the cheesecake and played with the cats and helped cook a christmas meal. minho was exhausted. he laid all tucked up in his bed in a fetal position almost.

i walked over and whispered "hey." before climbing beside him. he turned around and faced my direction but didn't cuddle against me yet. "ji, why couldn't i do it. she's my mom and pretty much my whole life . i can't believe its this hard to tell her something so simple. "

i took his hands and explained. " minho if you broke to tears when you told your friends, then your mother might just be harder. but she loves you so so much. and no matter what you'll be able to tell her when the time is right. " i kissed his cheek. "i promise, ok?"

"yea. you're right. " his hand melted into mine and we just laid there calmly. "i hope this was a fun vacation, ji. if we did something wrong just let us know and my mom and i can do whatever."

it had been far more than fun. it had been perfect and more . everything i could have never imagined had unraveled here. and it made me happy to know that i can just be such a source of happiness to minho. i wanted to be able to help with his anxiety and coming out to his mom one day. but right now i would just be his source of comfort.

it was quiet for a moment. and then for the night.

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new years was interesting though. minhos mom was at the neighbors party and left us alone for the night again. we had pots and pans and noise makers out as well as our new years hats that looked ridiculous.

we also had little snack trays and a live stream on our phone of the count down since there was no tv.

"hey ji. uh. i may or may not have found champagne." he seemed anxious to ask me. i know it's new years but not sure how i felt about alchohol for him even though it wasn't anything bad like shots or beer.
"i- i can't stop you can i?"  i sighed. a bit nervous but it was new years. maybe i'd let him get away.
he looked all pouty and a bit excited.

"fine. but please don't get drunk." we were leaning on the counter and shared a kiss for the moment before minho turned to pour some glasses. mine was
tiny and his was the long cliche champagne glass.
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and he got drunk. it was probably two in the morning and we were laying upstairs together again. minho was so out of it. he was the crack head drunk. just amazing now wasn't it. and that was sarcasm.

i thought he would have passed out by now but he kept twisting and turning and holding on to me tighter and tighter.

"hi hannie~" he whispered poking my cheek. "hi, min. why don't you try to lay down." i spoke silently. he already was but the context i mean was to try and sleep.

"ji i- i-. i am not, tired." he mumbled. he laid his head in my neck and mumbled again. "you smell pretty. like a strawberry or - or a strawberry."

i mean. that's what i've been told before so i just went with it. "thank you, min." i pecked his forehead.
"i- i think you're the bestestest boyfriend. i- i wuv you . wuv-love. love you." he giggled .

"i'm not your boyfriend, silly. now let's get some rest." luckily minho calmed down. and we were able to sleep a peaceful night that day.