Chapter 53. Recognition and Acceptance are Two Different Things.

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She jerked her head towards me as she quickly shrunk away and crawled backwards, breathing heavily, until her back hit the wall.

"N-no! No, no, please," She whispered quickly, "G-get away! G-get away from me!"

I looked into her cobalt blue eyes and held my hands up a little bit in surrender.

"I'm not going hurt you, Y/N," I said gently, "It's okay. It's okay, I'm okay."

She took a shaky breath and hugged her legs closer to her.

"No....please.....I don't even know you." She whispered shakily.

Do you hear that sound? That is the sound of my heart shattering to a million pieces.

"Y/N," I said gently, "Y/N, it's me. It's Loki, I'm right here." I paused, "It's Loki."

She looked up at me in recognition, "L-L-Lo-Loki?" She whispered shakily.

Alright, so we have some work to do.

I took a slow step towards her. "It's okay, Y/N. You're safe now, I won't hurt you. They won't hurt you. No one will."

"Why should I trust you?" She said softly, her eyes still a bright ocean blue.

I thought for a moment, "Because I know everything about you, Y/N. Please, Trust me. You've been alone and tortured for too long,
Y/N. You need to be loved and cared for." I paused, hoping she was listening. I brought my hand to my chest, "Let me do that."

"I-I remember you," She whispered.

I nodded slowly.

I would certainly hope so.

"You were my best friend," She whispered shakily, "We played together....laughed together....danced together.....read together..I know you, I-It was you....it was always you."

"I love you, Y/N. You know that, Don't you?"

"I want to trust you......but I-I can't.....You said you know everything...a-about me....tell me."

I slowly moved forward and sat down in front of her.

"Well..." I began slowly. I tried to take her hands in mine. She pulled them away from me abruptly and tried to move backwards, but there was nowhere for her to go. I rested my palms in my lap instead.

We have a LOT of work to do....Earn the trust, Loki, Earn the trust. We'll have to do this slowly...

"Your favorite color is purple, specifically orchid and violet.....if you could listen to music for eternity, you would...You pick at your palms when you get nervous...you can't wear bracelets without playing with them....you have the strangest obsession for the Midgardian chips, Pringles? I think they're called? You like walks in the woods, but you dislike climbing trees, and if your hot chocolate doesn't have cinnamon in it, you won't drink it." I smiled softly, "You like cuddles and the sound of laughter. You like sightseeing and traveling. There's something about the Midgardian vintage libraries and shops that you adore. You believe in true love, that everyone has a soulmate. You make references to books and films constantly to the point that it drives me completely and utterly mad, including the bad jokes and even worse puns. You're fond of the smell of books and new leather. You like the scent of my cologne and the smell of fresh air." I paused, hoping to get some sort of reaction out of her. I only received the same frightened look. I gave a small sigh.
"You use your training pod when you're angry or stressed or even bored. You never admit when you're sad or nervous or scared, and you hate talking about things that frighten you. You're deathly afraid of mummies and darkened closets and letting yourself heal," I paused, "Both physically and emotionally. You don't let people close to you, for fear that you'll get hurt. You never let people see you cry because you're scared that people will take advantage of you, knowing your weaknesses. You always have your guard up, but I know you, Y/N. You are more gentle and kind than anyone could possibly imagine. You're perceptive, you see things before they happen. You're snarky and sarcastic at the best and even the worst of times." I thought for a moment, trying to go back to what I was saying, "Thunderstorms help you sleep and you love the rain. When you see a fountain you can't help but toss in a coin and make a wish. You can't resist puppies and you love animals." I paused. "You may not believe it, but I do know you. I-what I do know, I love, Y/N. I love you." I paused, "I-I don't know what else to say, Y/N, I-......Please come back to me." I finished softly.

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