chapter playlist ⏯
• angel - finneas
• 4U - prettymuch
• somebody like you - in real life
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a day or two later
gemma clark <<<
The airport was crowded, as it always is at Christmas time, and quite frankly, any time. I was a little nervous navigating it myself, but I made it to a whole different country all by myself, which is pretty impressive. Granted, going from LA to New York is a longer flight than Omaha to Toronto, but still. I felt somewhat accomplished.
A certain boy was waiting for me outside of the airport, a boy that made my heart start beating really quickly because I spent more than a full day apart from him and that's sort of hard when you're really in love with him. He grinned at me and I grinned at him. I crossed the street as safely as possibly while moving quickly to him, ready to be in his arms again.
"Hey," I said, my smile still so wide as I made it to the car. I pulled down his sunglasses to see his eyes, because you can't really tell someone's emotions when you can't see their eyes. Plus, he has pretty eyes and I want to see them.
"Hey, beautiful," Shawn said, kissing me innocently. His eyes were happy. "I missed you."
"I missed you more," I replied, wrapping my arms around him, because sometimes, you need a hug after a long flight all alone. He complied and kissed the top of my head.
"Let's get out of here, then," he said, putting my stuff in the back of the car. I got into the passenger's seat, feeling relieved. I made it and he's here and everything worked out. My hands stopped shaking and I finally felt at peace.
He got in the driver's side, closed the door, and started the car. "How was the flight?" he asked, as you do when you pick someone up from the airport.
"Fine. I just read," I replied, which was true. I literally just read the entire time. Dad got me some new books for Christmas, and I feel like a kid in a candy store.
"Shocker," he said with a smile. "Was your dad sad about you leaving? And Liam?"
I nodded. "I think they both were. I always cry when I leave them, and Dad always tears up, and Liam just stands there awkwardly. So yeah, it wasn't much different than any other time."
"You don't even see how much you mean to them, Gem," he said, shaking his head. "Like...you being there means so much to your dad. I know he doesn't really show it too much, but I can tell. You mean the whole world to him."
I felt like crying again, just thinking about it. It's a sucky situation, having to leave people you love to be with other people you love. I wish it didn't have to be that way. It really sucks.
"That just makes it worse," I said softly. "I just...I don't know. I'll just never get over it, I guess."
He nodded. "I know how you feel, babe. You never get over it. You're not supposed to. But that's just life."
I knew he was right, but I just hate that reasoning. It's so disappointing.
"I know," I said. I wanted to get off this topic so badly. "But alas—people are dying and kids are starving, so I'm not going to dwell on it. How's the family? Are they nervous to meet me?"
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