heartbreak girl | s.m.

58 | december

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• these are the lies - the cab
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• the way i loved you - taylor swift

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december
gemma <<<

"You are so cute in all of your winter gear," I said to Jesse as we walked up the stairs from my apartment. He had on a hat, a big coat, and even a scarf.

"So are you," he told me. "I mean, earmuffs? It doesn't really get much cuter than earmuffs."

I chuckled. "My aunt gave them to me. They really do keep my ears quite warm."

He laughed, and I unlocked the door, letting us both inside. The warmth felt so nice.

We peeled off all of our extra layers—shoes, coats, hats, earmuffs—until we were back to our usual form.

"I'm exhausted now," Jesse said, falling back onto the couch. "I'm glad that we're not letting the cold weather ruin our city walks, but they're becoming a much more daunting task."

I started the process of making hot chocolate, which has become essential to our walks. It's the best way to warm up after being outside in the cold for so long. "Yeah, I agree. And this isn't even the coldest it's going to get."

He sighed. "I have to study so fucking hard tonight."

I groaned, remembering that finals existed, and I have two to take tomorrow. The last two. I just need to get decent grades on then, that's all. Not even an A; I'll take a B. I really don't want a C, but if I had to get one, I'd live. As long as it's a C+.

"Me too. Not as hard as you, though," I said. Can you even imagine having to take finals in classes like biochemistry? I think I'd die.

"Just a few more days, and then it's Christmas break, and everything will be good," he said, as if he was telling himself. "Then we can hang out, and go home, and just not have to worry about school anymore."

"Everything's going to work out. We're going to pass our finals, and that's that. Keep a positive mindset," I told him.

"I'll try. But in reality, molecular biology has been kicking my ass all year, and I really don't know if I'm going to pass," he said, putting his face in his hands.

"Jess, just relax. You're going to be fine," I told him. "You're just psyching yourself out."

"Yeah. Maybe," he replied. "But that's easy to say when you don't have one-hundred questions of a molecular biology exam staring you in the face at eight a.m."

I smiled. "I know. The fact that you've even made it this far is absolutely mind-boggling to me," I told him truthfully. "I really just think that you'll be fine. And if you're not, then fuck molecular biology. It sounds so stupid anyway."

He chuckled. "Thanks, Gem. I'm going to try to keep that positive mindset."

I walked into the living room with two cups of hot chocolate and handed one to him, then sat next to him. "Thank you," he said.

"You're welcome," I replied.

We didn't speak for a moment. We talk a lot. Way too much, if I'm honest.

"Hey, Tuesday is our two month anniversary," he said randomly. Jeez, only two months? I feel like it's been six at least. Two months is like nothing.

"Yay," I said with a smile. "I can't believe it's only been two months. I feel like we've been doing this for so long now."

"Yeah, same. I think we just spend a lot of time together," he replied, sipping his hot chocolate. "We've been spending a lot of time together for like, nine months now."