His Desperate Wife

Chapter 26

Thorine's POV
Leunice is still sleeping while I'm getting ready for our departure.Yanny is not here with us because she wants to spend the night with her Mamita and Papito.

I was about to pack our bags when Leunice cried again in her dreams.

Dahil sa takot ko ay muli ko itong yinakap.I know she's suffering from her dreams again. "It's okay wife.I-It's just a dream.It's a bad dream."Malumanay kong bulong dito.

She opened her eyes with so much hurt in it. "I'm scared you'll leave me again.B-because the man in my dreams left me in the sad rain.Y-you won't leave me again right?Natatakot ako."Natatarantang sabi nito sa akin.

I then kissed her forehead and hugged her tight. "I-I love you.I will not leave you again.I'm sorry."Malungkot kong sabi dito.

We started our marriage because of my hatred and her desperation.Love is more likely fading.She didn't have the chance to feel it because I've taken it away from her.

I want her to feel that she's being loved by me.

"Kung mahal mo ko bakit mo ko sinaktan?You're very cold to me in my dreams and it feels like those are my reality.Those aren't just any dreams.But it's all about you and me."Malamig na sambit nito sa akin habang umiiyak.

Napakagat labi nalang ako.I did this to you Leunice.And I'm regretting it.

Please come back to me.

"Wife, I love you.I really do.Nasaktan kita kasi ang gago ko.But I'm repenting for it now.I'll be here for you.Kung aalis ka man sa tabi ko, hindi na ako tulad ng dati na hindi ka hahabulin.I'm going to find you Leunice.I'll accept everything even if it's hard."Malungkot kong sabi.

"I love you Leunice."Sabi ko saka sumubsob sa dibdib niya.I'm like a lost child whose very tired.I want someone to comfort me.

Pero imbis na sabihin niya ang mga katagang hinihintay ko ay hinawakan niya lang ang pisngi ko.

"I-I'm so sorry for being so useless to you.Siguro iniwan mo ako kasi kasalanan ko lahat.Maybe you left me because I deserved it?"Nalilitong tanong nito habang umiiyak.

I don't want her to think like that.Everything is almost my fault.At kung may mali man siya, matagal na ang panahon na yun.

Because of my frustration I just kissed her with full of love.Pero imbis na tumugon siya ay tinulak niya ako.

Napangiti nalang ako ng mapait.Eventhough, she's pushing me back I still love her so much.Kahit nasasaktan ako sa akto nito, mas napamahal pa nga ako sa kaniya.This is her effect on me.

"Love, it's okay.I understand.Does it hurts?Saktan mo ko Leu.Saktan mo ko hanggang sa mawala na ang sakit.Saktan mo ko hanggang sa maging masaya kana ulit."Pagmamakaawa kong sabi dito saka mas lumapit pa sa kaniya at muli siyang yinakap.

I don't want to start our day if she's still suffering from pain.Gusto kong ipalabas yung sakit at galit niya sa akin.I deserved this pain.I deserved her mourns.

Nakaramdam nalang ako ng mga suntok niya sa likod ko.She's crying hard.

"A-ang sama sama mo!Bakit palagi nalang akong nasasaktan?I've tried to forget those dreams but everytime I have the chance to talk you, those dreams are all flashing back in my mind!Bakit dun hindi mo ako mahal?!You're even using my body for you own cause.G-gusto kong sumigaw!Tinawag kita!At umasa akong babalik ka para iligtas ako.I hate you for ruining me!I hate myself for having the urge to be with you kahit na nasasaktan nako.I'm hating myself because of you.Mahal ba kita?Why would I love a beast like you?B-Bakit ikaw pa?"Puno ng sakit na sabi nito sa akin.