DeVante Swing
September 29th,2016
Los Angeles, California
"Can't believe your ass is 44." K-Ci says, shaking his head while sipping the Red Bull and Rum combination he currently had in his cup.
"You shouldn't even be drinking Red Bull." I say to him while looking down at my water bottle.
"Just because you are trying to be this new and improved Donald, doesn't mean I'm not trying to be K-Ci aka the heartthrob of Jodeci." K-Ci says and JoJo kisses his teeth.
"Motherfucker you mean heart attack? Cause you definitely wasn't no damn heartthrob." JoJo says and all of us laugh.
"That was a good one!" Dalvin says and I shake my head at the headassery.
It's been 15 years since Nyla's transition.
I don't use the word passing because I truly believe that she didn't pass away. I feel her presence here with me everyday.
When she transitioned, I fell into a dark place. I didn't know who I was or what I was going to do. Not only did I lose my entire heart, our daughter lost a mother.
So I started to drink a lot of alcohol in order to cope with the pain. It was a terrible choice but I didn't know what to do. The alcohol made me do some crazy things.
I currently have this permanent face tattoo because of that dark phase.
I then realized that I couldn't be so sad. I had a child to raise. Khylé didn't need to loose another parent. So I decided to reconnect with my parents. I dropped off Khylé at my parents house for a year in order to get myself together. I needed it. I needed the help. Nyla wouldn't want me like this.
Our last phone call still plays in my head every single day. The last thing she told me was that she loved me so much.
And I loved her too.
More than life itself.
I still have my emotional phases where I lock myself up inside my room and cry but it's been easier these past few years.
It's been much easier because Khylé is here.
I found peace within her.
She looks like her mother more and more everyday and that is my reassurance.
Reassurance that Nyla isn't gone. She's living through her.
God knew what was going to happen so he left another being for me.
Everything happens for a reason.
I just wish things happened differently.
If I had the chance to do things completely different I would.
But I realized that, you can't change fate.
Nobody deserved her on earth so God took her.
Can't be mad at that.
I looked down at the kitchen table we were all sitting around.
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HAZEL 2 ➝ D.SWING x AALIYAH.
Fanfiction[if you haven't read Hazel don't click on this story until you have] This is a continuation of the love story of Nyla-Janae Jones and DeVante Swing four years later after departing from each other in the summer of 1990.
