The Real Me// fillie

Chapter 24

Millie has been at the treatment facility for about 3 days now. She was sitting down on the couch that was by the window using her computer while she waited for Finn to come back.

"Hey" said Caleb walking in the room

"Hi" said Millie standing up to give him a hug. He hands her a teddy bear and a movie CD "Sadie and I got you this"

"Thank you"she said holding the items "Where's Sadie? I haven't seen for a while now"

"She's waiting in the car. I just wanted to stop by real quick to give you those"

"Thank you Caleb, can you let her know that i would really like to see her when she's not busy"

"Of course i got to go but i'll come another time" said Caleb before leaving the room

Millie was quite bummed that Sadie didn't come up. She hasn't seen her for a couple of days now and every time she tells her to come over she says that she's busy.

Finn then appeared with a bottle of water. "Hey"

"Caleb came and dropped this off" she said motioning to the Cd's

"Cool" he says sitting down on the bed.

"Finn, how is Sadie?"she said sitting next to him

"Uh good i guess i don't know i haven't spoken to her these last couple of days she seems to be distant with all of us except Caleb."

"Do you think she's mad or embarrassed that i'm here" she asked. Those were the only two reasons that she could think of for her not coming to see her or even reply back to her and give her an honest answer.

"Of course not she's just-" he stops sighing " she blames herself for it" 

"What?"

-A couple days earlier-

"She's getting treated Finn, I could have stopped it. I could have done something, i could have helped her"

"It's not your fault" he says reassuring her

"Then why do i feel like it is. I feel guilty that i didn't know about it. I mean i noticed that she wasn't eating but i believed her when she said that she was."

"We all didn't notice, people suffer in silence all the time" 

"But i'm her best friend Finn! She's always noticed when something is happening to me and I"  she stops as she lets out a sob "And i couldn't even do that back"

"Look she's going to get better" he wipes a tear from her pale face "She's going to come back to us soon, she'll be the same Millie as before" "And don't blame yourself your a great best friend"

-present time- 

"You, you have to tell her it's not her fault"she says "Do you also feel the same way?" she asked him looking at his brown eyes that she's learned to love more and more each day.

He nods "Yeah, i do"

"Finn" she says softly placing her hand on his knee "Finnie, please don't blame yourself, it none of your guys fault. It's my fault for letting iris get to me and those messages getting to me. i'm weak"

"You're not weak, you're going to get better i believe in you Mills"

She sobs grabbing his hand into hers "Finn this may never get better" she says squeezing his hand. "And if it doesn't-"

"It will. I promise it will" he says cutting her off. She softly smiles back at him resting her head on his shoulder still holding onto his hand. 

She needed to get better not just for herself but for everyone else too because what she wouldn't know is that friendships were going to start falling apart.

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She was getting weighted in about 5 minutes and she knew that she probably hasn't even gained a pound and most likely has lost a pound or so. She was also told that she would be having a therapy session in a couple of days with her parents. She scoffed just thinking about them. Her mother is away like always, she seems to run away from her problems rather than confront them and her dad, she doesn't know if he was told or not.

She stood on the weight scale looking anywhere but the scale.

"You've lost 3 pounds." the nurse sighed writing it down on her clipboard "You should be gaining instead of losing" she whispered softly.

She noticed the other patients that were in the room. Some of them were on tread mills while other were doing some light weights, the room was also a gym.

Once she went back to her room she was put on a feeding tube. They should have done that at first but they though that having solid food would be good but obviously it wasn't doing her any good since she wasn't eating.

"It'll only be until your weight goes up a bit, it won't be permanent" says Mia as she adjust the feeding tube. 

Millie hated it, she hated being there getting treated, it made her feel not normal. She stills believes that she deserved it, she deserved the bullying right? She doesn't deserve anything, she doesn't deserve the love and support she is getting. She's better off with out it. She just wanted to disappear from the world and not have to share her problems with someone else especially strangers.

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Idk about this chapter, i like some parts and others are ehh... I know it's not the best chapter sorry :/

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