The Real Me// fillie

chapter 37

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Millie wakes up quickly did her morning routine and changed into blue denim high waisted mom jeans and a white tank top and put over a flannel. It hits her as she comes to realization that she is going back home. She is able to leave because she is fixed, she's normal right?

Olivia and Mia came in her room making her put on a blindfold and surprised her with a going away party. She smiled as she saw her friends there. They were all proud of her for getting through it and getting better. but no one saw the way that she felt.

You don't know how i feel. Nobody knows how she feels

because as long as she acted the right way, said the right things, did the right things that would mean that she is fixed. They cured her, they fixed her, she is normal again.

All she kept hearing was "i'm proud of you" or "congratulations you won, you won the battle" when they went around saying something to Millie.

There she was spending the last couple of minutes with everyone that believed in her before going home. She was talking with Olivia and Daniel and Finn while Gaten took her bags to the car. Her mother didn't even show up not that Millie thought she would but still she had hope for that.

She then said her goodbye to everyone and giving them a hug until she was outside. She turned around looking at the building one last time before she walked away. On the drive home Finn drove her home and played her favorites songs on the ride home.

Finally they had arrived home making Millie take a deep breath in. Finn opened the door for her and also got her bags out the back of the car.

She walked up the steps as he was beside her. she sighed as she opened the door revealing a WELCOME HOME banner. The whole working staff were there along with her friends.

She smiles as she hugs all of them they may work for her but they have always treated her as if she was their daughter.

"Welcome home Ms.Millie" said Debby, one of the maids. She smiled trying her best to not cry. She looked to see if her mom was going to come out and say hi but she didn't.

"Where's my mom?" she asked

"She left but she'll be back for your graduation" said Debby

Millie weakly smiled "I'm going to go take this upstairs and unpack"

"I could-" said a maid

"It's okay I got it" she said as she walked upstairs.

She's finally in her room, nothing has changed she still has her king size bed that has white comforters matching her silky pillows cases and her Polaroid wall with fairy lights. She sobs as she starts to let the tears fall down. She's been trying to hide her sadness the whole morning.

"You know it's okay to be sad because if you force yourself to be happy you are not being yourself i don't want you to fake happiness." Finn tells her as she see's her kinda tear up when she is in her room, where it all started. Also due to the fact that he could tell that she wanted to cry even before on the car ride but she was holding it back.

She takes a deep breath then exhales, she's fine "I'm fine"

"Do you need any help?"

"I'm good thanks." she tell him "Finn?" she says making him walk to her.

"Thank you" she sighs "I know i keep telling you that but I really am"

"Come here"he says with open arms. She hugs him, she holds onto him tightly "I'm scared finnie"

"It's going to be okay" he says. He kisses her forehead before he places his chin on top of her head holding her tightly.  

They stay like that for a while until Sadie came in but once she saw she smirked and said to go down stairs and "i'm watching you two"

"We should go down after all it's for you"

Millie nodded "I'll be down in a minute" Finn left her room leaving her alone.

She began to unpack some stuff but most importantly grabbed her journal. she touched the cover of it before placing it on her nightstand drawer. She then placed her bags on her closet and then went downstairs where she spent the rest of the day with the people that she loves the most.

She danced, sang and was having fun even if it was just for a couple of hours. She even got Finn to dance with her to some pop music. She doesn't know it but she is Finn's weak spot. He'll do anything for her.

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She was lying awake her thoughts couldn't let her sleep. Its true when they say "A lot of people struggle with sleep because sleep requires peace" well she definitely did not feel at peace.

She's sure there were rumors about her being gone. What if Iris or Maddie have made a bad rumor about her like her being pregnant and that's why she left school.

She deeply wanted to text or call Finn over for her to feel his arms wrapped around her but she couldn't she didn't want to be needy.

She was drawn out of her thoughts as she heard a knock from the balcony doors, she knew it had to be Finn so she just said "come in" and he then appeared.

"Hey" he says softly

"What are u doing here?" she asks. She didn't mind him coming over in fact him being there with her made all those negative thoughts go away for a sec. She really likes having him around.

He shrugs his shoulder "Just wanted to see you"

A smile appears on her face, she scoots to the left side of the bed as she pats the right side for him to go to. He walks over to the side and goes under the covers.

"Finn" she begins her voice shaky

He shushes her and pulls her to him "It's going to be okay mill"

"You should get some sleep you have school tomorrow" she tells him

"You mean we have school tomorrow" he says correcting her. She sighed she didn't want to go back she was scared.

So she moved closer to Finn as she laid her head on his chest while he ran his fingers through her short chestnut hair. She fell asleep to the rhythm of his heartbeat.

She felt at peace with him.

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3 CHAPTERS LEFT!!

  Also just letting you ALL know that forehead kisses are superior!