The Real Me// fillie

Chapter 23

A week has passed by since Millie confronted her bullies. She thought by doing so it would help her be back to who she was but it didn't. Nothing's changed. She still sees herself as someone who needs to look more thin. 

She was currently at Sadie's house doing homework and studying for a test.

"So are you still getting those texts?" asked Sadie breaking the silence.

"No" she shakes her head "It stopped"

"Are you okay? I mean like with everything. I know it's been a rough couple of months for you with the bullying,your mom, your dad leaving.." Millie had finally told the group about her dad leaving, they were all kind to her and just showed her love.

"Yeah i'm fine" she said with a small smile before looking back at her book. 

"Yeah sure you are"

"What's that suppose to mean?" she asked the redhead

"I'm just saying bullying isn't something that you get over quickly Millie-"

"How would you know?! You've never gone through that."

"I can take you to counseling, get you fixed-"

"I don't need to be fixed because i'm fine" she says standing up "If we're not even going to study or do homework then i'm leaving" she walks out with her bag and books leaving her house.

Millie makes it to her house still upset, she was walking up the stairs when her mother called after her. 

"Millie" she says making her stop

"Put your stuff in your room and then come downstairs." she did what she was told. She was now sitting down in the dining room ready to have dinner with her mother.

"I know that's it's been hard you know with everything and I haven't been here so why don't we catch up" her mother says to which she scoffs.

"So how are you, how's school?"

"I'm fine, and school well i'm doing my best"

"You're failing classes. it's your senior year you shouldn't be failing any classes how will you get into college"

"Is this what your worried about?" she asked "And to think you actually cared about how i was doing" she rolls her eyes and gets up

"You are not excused so sit down and finish the food!"

She looks at her plate grabbing the fork. She hesitates before actually shoving food into her mouth. She finishes the food and leaves going to her room. She starts pacing around pulling on her hair not knowing what to do next. She grabs her phone calling the only person that will understand

"Pick up pick up" she whispers still pacing around. When it goes to voicemail she throws her phone aggravated. She goes into her restroom locking the door behind her. She kneels down to the toilet sticking her toothbrush in her mouth throwing up the food. She's always been fine doing so but this time it was too much that when she was done darkness consumed her.

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After the missing calls from Millie and trying to ring her back but her not answering he quickly went to her house. He walked in through the balcony looking around her room.

"Millie?" he says. He sees her phone shattered on the floor. He checks her closet and then goes to the restroom but it's locked. He pushes and pushes until he's able to get the door open and what he see's scared him. There she is lying on the floor unconscious. He pulls her to him trying to wake her up but she doesn't respond. He calls 911 and soon ambulances could be heard and she is pulled out of her house into the back of the ambulance where she is taken to a hospital.

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She wakes up to a bright room. She hears the monitors to her left next to her and looks to her right where she see's Finn. 

"Mills"

"Finn"she begins "I'm sorry" she sobs "I'm so sorry"

"Hey" he grabs her hand "You're going to be fine." he says before her mother walks in with a doctor. 

"Finn, I need to talk to you" she says to which he nods and walks outside to where she explains everything that the doctor had told her about Millie's condition. 

He walks back in grabbing a chair pulling it next to her. He grabs her hand into his comforting her. 

"How are you feeling?" he asked her. it was just a simple question but not for her

"I don't feel good" she says truthfully

"Mills-"

"Sweetie why did you stop eating?" her mother said in a soft voice. Millie looked at her with a disgusted hatred look.

"I stopped eating because you called me fat" she said loud and clear for her mother to hear. "And those messages didn't help either" she said in a whisper. 

"Millie you're going to a treatment center to get better. I've already talked to the doctor and you will be taken tomorrow" she says before leaving the room.

"Why didn't you tell me Mills."

"I didn't tell you because i didn't want you to see me the way that i saw myself" shaky crying voice "I didn't want our relationship to change but i couldn't stop *sniff* i really wanted to but i couldn't stop"

"Hey" he says caressing her face "You're going to get through this and i'm going to be every step of the way" he says making a smile appear on her face.

The others then came later on obviously shocked about it but made it clear to Millie that they were going to be there for her no matter what because that's how much they loved her and cared for her.

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Millie was on her way to a local clinic where she would be staying to be treated for her anorexia. She set down her luggage that her mother had packed, before she left for her trip. 

"Hello Millie, I am Mia i'm going to be your nurse. So why don't i show you around" she said making Millie nod and follow her. She showed her the lobby, the cafeteria, the classes, the pool, the rooftop that is suppose to be closed but people still go. 

"And those are the other patients room." she said finishing off "We are going to help you get through this okay" Millie smiled and nodded before heading back to her "room." She sat down on the bed opening up the luggage and taking out the clothes and putting them away in the drawers. She got a few texts from Sadie, Caleb, Lilia and Finn just giving her support.

Sadly Finn won't be able to visit her today due to a family dinner with his extended family but Sadie and Lilia were going to come over later to keep her company.

Millie was currently in the cafeteria waiting in line for her food. She looked around seeing other patients she was told that others were there for other reasons than her. She grabbed the plate that was given to her and made her way to an empty table. She had a 1 slice of a sandwich, an apple and a glass of water. She looked at the food with disgust so she pushed the tray away from her. 

She's there to get better but will she allow herself to do so. Will those words fat,worthless, pig stop appearing in her mind? All she knows is that this is going to be a struggle and that she won't be the same after, she's not the same anymore as before and people don't understand that.

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