The Real Me// fillie

Chapter 34

Dedicated to

Jul_Jul_Jul-, Lily_Mileven ,popsikle, dizzymills, mcfillie, danalhajjaj, milxvensbby, Fdz_Clpz

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"Why did you ask me to kiss you?" says Finn as he looks at her. They are still at the roof top looking out into the night city lights.

She is caught of guard by the question. She places her hands down as she fidgets with the ring before saying, "I- I don't know" but of course she knew

"I just don't want anything to change. I like having you around Finn and I don't want that to change"

She sighs "I was just confused with my feelings but one that i'm certain about is that I don't want things to change between us. I like having you around Finn, you're really important to me." he smiles hearing her say that. He leans in kissing her cheek making her blush and shyly smile.

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She's at the rooftop alone. Everything around her dark and colorless. She looks down seeing partly an empty street. She takes a deep breath as she makes herself stand on the edge. 

Those same words were constantly in her mind worthless, ugly, fat, and she couldn't make them stop. She wanted to stop those thought in her mind, those negative thoughts, the feeling but most importantly end the pain.

"I don't want to be sad. I don't want to feel this way anymore" she says before taking a step forward and falling into thin air. 

Everything finally stops, she's gone forever.

Millie wakes up gasping for air, it felt so real, too real. She looked to where Finn was sleeping on the couch hoping she didn't wake him up but she did.

"Hey are you okay?" he says worried

She sighs "Yeah it was just a bad dream"

"Do you need anything? I can go get you some tea or-"

"Can you stay with me?" she pats the spot next to her, he nods as he slips in beside her. He puts is arm under her head as she lays her head on his chest.

"Is this okay?"

"It's perfect" she says making him smile as he pulls her closer to him.

She looks up at him seeing that he was already looking at her. She placed her hand on his cheek caressing it as she traced his freckles.

He grabs her hand kissing it softly as he places it on his chest as she is able to feel his rapid heart beat. 

"That's how you make me feel" he says making a small smile form on her face

She pulls herself up a bit so she is exactly starring straight away from each other.

"Can I kiss you?" she whispers softly. They were just 3 inches apart.

"The problem is," he says as he leans in closer, "If we kiss, I don't think I'd be able to stop."

She gulps nervously as she moves her hand to his curls where she runs her hand through them tugging them a bit.