Our little secret

Chapter 28

Maya PoV

I felt like the world was closing around me nothing was going right

I couldn't hold it in anymore I just broke down everything that had happened with Riley, Cory and now Lucas I couldn't hold it in any longer

I just started crying I was clutching my chest, I felt like I couldn't breath, I felt like I wasn't going to be happy again

I just fell to the ground and I felt two arms wrap around me, when I opened my eyes I saw Riley crouched down in front of me holding me in her arms

I just cried in her arms and she held me close brushing away my hair with her fingers "It's okay Maya" she said in a soothing tone

We sat there for a few minutes until I finally calmed myself down a little bit to talk, I was still crying but I could at least talk to her now "I screwed everything up"

"I saw" she admitted, I moved out of her arms and just sat opposite her

"Why is nothing going right, first I loose you, now Cory's hurt and I've just lost Lucas" I stopped myself from crying even more

Riley wiped away my tears on my cheeks "Peaches you haven't lost me, I'm so sorry I was horrible. Yes you hurt me but I should of heard you out" she said with a comforting smile

"I didn't realise how upset I was making you I'm really sorry" she frowned slightly but it wasn't her fault like with Lucas it was my fault everything was my fault

"No Riley you were right to be angry at me if it was the other way around I would be angry with you" I sniffled

"I'm still here you didn't loose me, as for Lucas he loves you I know he does and he'll always love you" Riley tried to comfort me and I'm glad I had her back as my friend but she was wrong I had lost him this time

"You didn't hear him Riles he doesn't want me anymore, he doesn't love me" I almost broke down again but I pushed the tears back down

Riley stood up and helped me up off the floor "Maya answer me this, do you love him?" Her voice was very serious now

"It causes too many problems and we aren't good together, we always argue and-" she cut me off by speaking over me

"Do you love him?" She asked again

"Yeah I love him" I admitted and Riley grabbed my hand "Then fight for him"

I let go of her hand and picked up the necklace he gave me, putting it back on luckily I didn't break it when I threw it

I was going to procrastinate about going after him for longer when Riley told me to go after him again

"Maya I'll watch Hope, just go tell him how you feel I will not be the reason you two aren't happy" I just nodded and started to go after him

"Run after him, you're never going to catch up at that snail pace" Riley joked and I took a deep breath and did as she said I ran around a few corners and down a flight of stairs and I finally got to the front desk, I could still see my car so I hoped he hadn't left yet

"LUCAS!" I shouted hoping if he hadn't left and he could hear me but there was no answer I just got a glare off the receptionist

"Have you seen my friend he would of just left maybe five or ten minutes ago?" I asked the woman on the front desk

"Are you Maya?" She asked and I hesitated before saying that I was in fact Maya

"Your friend left this for you and he left in a cab, you just missed him" she passed me my keys and I realised it was too late

"Okay thank you" I gave her a slight smile and went back to Riley and the others

"Well?" Riley asked when I got back to Corys room, Josh, Auggie and Mr Matthews parents were all outside so it was only Topanaga in the room with Cory

"He wasn't there" I took a deep breath and put on a fake smile and pushed past it "Can I see Cory?" I asked changing the subject

"Yeah sure" Riley said with a pity smile

"Hope lets go in" I held her hand and we walked in together

I sat beside his bed next to Topanaga with Hope on my knees "I hope we're not interrupting anything"

"No you're not" Topanaga said with a smile

"How are you feeling Mr Matthews?" I asked concerned about him

"I'm okay Maya, thank you" he smiled warmly at me "How are you?" He asked

"Me? You're the one who got hit by a car, I'm fine" I smiled back at them both

"Riley told us what happened" the smile quickly left my face

"Nothing happened because there was nothing there to begin with, we were always just friends" I partially lied we were just friends we never dated but we felt something for each other

I looked at Hope "Do you want to go back home and carry on opening presents" I said and she smiled brightly at me

"Yay presents!" She said all giddy and I looked back at Cory and Topanaga

"If it's okay I'm going to take her home" they both nodded "I hope you'll recover soon" I smiled and said goodbye to them

When we walked out the room all eyes were on us "We're going home now" I said to everyone "Merry Christmas to you all" I smiled and started walking away

"Peaches?" I heard Riley say so I stopped and turned around

She came up and hugged me tightly "I'm sorry" I hugged her back with one arm since I was still holding Hopes hand

"It's okay Riles, I'm sorry too" we released from the hug and I left

On the drive back home my thoughts wouldn't leave Lucas I just wanted to be with him I regret how I acted so much, I just wish I could go back and start today all over again