Sam: you had first realized your feelings for the younger Winchester after a particularly scary hunt.A shifter had taken form of your sister/brother. After he kidnapped you, he drugged you. So at the time being so out of it, you thought that it was actually your sister/brother. It would tell you that she/he never loved you, it would call you names you could never mention to another soul. It gave you so many scars you cannot handle looking at yourself anymore. After all of that, Sam was there for you, he was your rock. You realized during that time that you had fallen in love with him, and you were horrified. Finally you had gotten the courage to tell Dean about your feelings for his little brother. Dean being Dean he kept pushing you to tell Sam. You thought he was crazy at first, but eventually decided to just go for it. If he feels the same that's great, if he rejects you, then.. you'll have to live in awkward silence for the rest of your life. So you got up the next morning, and tried to prepare yourself. Being as cliche as possible you practiced what you were gonna say over and over in the mirror before doing anything.
Makeup done, and dressed slightly better than usual
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(without the purse that's the outfit, you can change it to whatever is suitable for you) you set out to find Sam. Walking through the halls you gave yourself a little pep talk. "Ok (y/n), you've got this. Just tell him how you feel, don't mess up. You can do this, it's just Sam. The Sam you talk to about everything. your Sam. And if he doesn't feel the same, stay strong. Don't cry." Soon enough you found him sitting in the library researching. Taking a deep breath you walk over to him.
"Hey Sam!" You say in your usual chipper voice. "Oh,(y/n), hey uh what's up?" "Well I really need to talk to you about something.." rubbing your neck you slowly sat down in front of him. His eyes were concerned and his focus was solely on you. "Wait, before you say anything (y/n), I need to tell you something first. um I'm really sorry but I don't love you that way. You're like a best friend to me, like a sister. I'm sorry." your eyes widened at his words. trying to comprehend how he got this information. Then it finally hit you, it was Dean.
"Dean told you?..." you asked your voice soft on the edge of breaking, but you kept strong. keeping your promise to not cry. he looked at you with a look of remorse, knowing that he had hurt you. He couldn't just not tell you, you deserved to know. closing your eyes tightly, you took a deep breath "He told you everything? He told you how you were the one who got me through everything that happened with the shifter. You were the one who put my broken pieces back together. You were the first person I've ever been in love with." you said as calmly as you could.
He heard your words, and he could feel his heart breaking. Actually hearing those words from your mouth. figuring out that he was the first person you ever loved was killing him. "(y/n), I'm sorry. I didn't know that. I-I just, I couldn't lie to you. you deserve to know the truth so you can hopefully move on. I just want what's best for you." Sam seemed so surprised and guilty.
You could feel your breath hitch, and you carefully nodded at him. You couldn't say anything in fear of crying, so you quickly turned on your heels and walked away. Straight to your room, you could hear Dean shout after you. Trying to follow you, and comfort you, as he had been listening in. but before he got to you, you had already locked him out. You locked Sam out...
