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Castiel imagine

A/n- I'll reiterate. I LOVE MY BLUE EYED ANGEL OF THE LORD.

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Dean had been giving you a hard time lately. You had made a mistake in your research and told them it was a ghost they were hunting but it turned out it was a revenant. Sam got hurt pretty badly but nothing that some time wouldn't fix up. Dean completely chewed you out over it. Understandably so, seeing as it was his brother. Still you apologized profusely to both of the boys. 
Sam being the kind soul he is reassured you that he was ok and he wasn't upset with you. Dean on the other hand walked around the bunker ignoring you. No matter what, he paid no mind to you whatsoever. 
Dean was your best friend so this was hurting you incredibly badly. 

You always had a crush on Castiel, but you were too scared to tell him. Which made you too scared to pray to him when this situation arose. It had been days since the hunt, and you finally got Dean to talk to you. Well more like he yelled at you again. 

"Damn it (y/n)! Can't you do anything right?! You almost got Sammy killed, and you're just trying to make me brush this off! What the hell is wrong with you, huh?!" He yelled at you. You had just asked him if you could talk to him. Your eyes welled with tears but didn't let them fall. 

"It was a mistake Dean. I said I was sorry, I'm not asking you to brush it off. I'm just asking that would maybe try and forgive me!" You shouted back. 
He looked at you incredulously. His eyes said "are you serious?" 

"A mistake that could've killed my baby brother. When will you get it through your thick skull that this mistake isn't one to just forgive so quickly!" He yelled again. You flinched. 
"You know, what (y/n), I'm so sick of you. Just leave me and my brother alone. We don't need your crap anymore. All you are is baggage, your just another burden we have to carry." He practically growled. Now you couldn't hold it back anymore. Tears freely fell. 

Sam then walked in. Hearing the fighting, he decided to step in and defend you. 
"Dean. Stop. It was a mistake, an accident ok. You've made mistakes that have almost gotten her killed, and me. So don't persecute her for something we're all guilty of doing. Don'tyou dare sit here and say to her that she is a burden to us. You damn well know she carries us more than we have ever carried her." Sam defends you. 

He looks down at you and pulls you into his side, with his good arm. 
"Why don't you head to bed (y/n), get some sleep, you deserve it. I love you, we both do. Really."  Sam said softly to you. Pressing a kiss to your head. 

You nodded. "Ok Sammy.. I'm sorry to both of you. I really am. I love you too boys." You said before quickly walking past Dean to get to the hallway. You could've easily bumped his shoulder and be petty, but you didn't have it in you. You slipped by him, careful to avoid him. You walked by him keeping your head down mumbling one last time "I'm sorry." He looked at you when you passed by him, his heart clenched a bit but he brushed it off. Anger still rushed through him.

As you walked away, you heard Sam begin to chew his brother out. 

You tried to wipe away the tears before it was too late to stop everything from falling apart. 

Their voices grew muffled when you closed the door to your room. As you were preparing to go to sleep. You felt the hollow part of your heart grow. Against your minds wishes you began to pray to Cas. Needing him right now to just be with you, or even just hear you. 

"Hey Cas, I don't usually do this. I just, I feel really hollow without you here. I feel really alone and honestly scared. I never say that but, I can't hold it in anymore. Cas I'm scared.. im scared that Dean will never forgive me, and that maybe Sam will begin to agree with him. I don't want my family to hate me Castiel. They're all I have and have had for my whole life. I don't- I don't know what to do.. Castiel I know you may not have the time, but could you maybe stay with me, just for a while..." you shook your head. "Never mind, i'm sure you're busy, you don't want to hear any of this. I'm sorry. Goodnight Castiel..." you finished off, your eyes were filled with tears again.